bangau oh bangau....

part I
Bangau oh bangau mengapa hujan turun...hahaha...musim bangau turun kat pulau aku...wah! sgt cantik pemandangan padang skola aku dah mcm kat zoo...hmpir sme binatang ade...anjing, kucing, ayam, kambing, lembu, babi, bangau...aku tunggu gajah limpas kat padang tu....baru la aku rasa skola aku tu skola dalam zoo!

part II
owh...next week bebudak aku ade exam..I'll bet ramai yg fail...first: sbb aku buat suklan copy tampal buku latihan yg semestinya bukan level anak murid aku...secondly: sbb anak murid aku mmg xske blaja jd bila aku kata fokus, ini suklan exam depa buat dunno ja n masih malas menulis....thirdly: sbb aku jujur...hang salah...aku pangkah

part IV
meeting ngan guru2 makan 2jam...kawan sbelah aku pengsan...aku kena angkat dia...trus sakit blakang aku sampai la ni ha...ugh...berbakti pada kawan...gb aku skali lagi buat tindakan berani...sibuk org uruskan kawan aku pengsan...sibuk dia nak masuk bilik tu nak jengok2...cikgu2 lelaki lain sme reti bahasa...dia ni sorg tak serik2...cam haram! owh...smlm my dearest big bros cikgu matius n cikgu mis blanja makan kfc..waaa!!! depa mmg concern, aku sayang depa!

part V
aku duk kat skool sampai kul 4pm...balik trus mandi pastu dah tak kuar rumah...sminggu ni tu la rutin aku n aku tak cari line...sbb nak tenangkn pkran...alhamdulillah dah tenang...on2 fon ade 14 msgs n salah satunya dari Mr.DramaKing aku...oh...rupanya dia saje nak test aku sbb dia tahu aku ni baran...silap org dia mahu test...akhirnya bukan aku yg merayu (stelah aku buat bolayan) tapi dia yg dtg memberi penjelasan...dah aku kata aku dah buang sme gambar trmasuk no fon dia....baru dia tahu tahap baran aku tu camna...skrg aku lak test dia...kalo mau smbg aku tak mahu bf-gf relationship...aku mahu yg lebih serius...ahha...dia lak yg panik! hahahaha...pepandai ko la ye labu!

part VI
ok..this nazir nazak or whatever they call this person is so menyusahkan sme org...aku mmg takde perasaan...depa nak masuk kelas observe aku...observe la...peduli ape aku...kalo buat paling best pun ade je yg nak dikutuknya...nak kritik mmg senang...tu la kerja pailng senang dalam dunia...aku rasa kalo cukup tahun aku nak apply gak jadi nazir ni...kerja paling mudah dalam dunia...hahaha...lantak ko la labu

part VII
sehari ja aku berjimba di darat weekend ni...thanx to mesyuarat umno...hotel fully book tuk tomorrow...satu kudat full! bodo! makin menyampah aku ngan umno...depa bukan dtg mesyuarat pun...skadar angguk2 geleng2 ja...slebihnya perabeh duit krajaan...hampeh!

cari line

the only place yg ade line...for real!

hilang...cuba dgr

Meet Uncle Hussain - Hilang (OST Apa Kata Hati)

Hadirlah keindahan yang abadi
Kau lenyapkan kenangan yang telah kualami
Cinta yang didusta rela ku dosa
Kelalaian kau memperdayaku

Namun apalah dayaku
Tempuh biar kau hanyut
Hanyut dalam warna-warna dunia

Heningnya ku rasakan
Melihat jiwa meronta
Ku gagahkan dan teguh berdiri
Segala nikmatnya syurga kononnya
Kelalaian kau memperdayaku

Namun segala kisah berlaku
Harus ku terima
Hanya berserah pada yang
Maha esa

Tiada apa ku harap
Hanya dapatku temukan
Keindahan yang abadi selamanya

Namun segala kisah berlaku
Harus ku terima
Hanya berserah pada yang
Maha esa

Tiada apa ku harap
Hanya dapatku temukan
Keindahan yang abadi selamanya






AKU KATA: argh!!! uh...uh...MUH!!! swaktu mencari2 lagu tuk didl...trjumpa la aku ngan lagu dari one of my fav local indie band...ya...meet uncle hussain...lagu ni giler masyuk...kena ngan situasi aku gak...sora lan pun mendayu2...hahaha...damn I miss gig! I miss live show depa...MUH...one buck short...hujan...the otherside orchestra...oh chentaku (I miss the tee too...huhu)...bittersweet...cik payung...novelea...free love...aku merindui RTW...RANTAI...LOMOkids aku...aku rindu geng chill chill jewrr ku yg senantiasa dahagakan gig n live show sebegini (meskipun aku tak moshing atau body slamming)..mungkin ade yg pelik aku layan event2 sebegini (terkenang wajah terkedu max ACAB ade awek brtudung kenal dia..hahaha)...tapi aku n rerakan tahu batasannya...yg penting kami dlm keadaan sedar...bukan dbwh pengaruh ape2 yg negative...aku cuma ske live event...ske dgr live music...damn I miss event kat KLCC! hahahaha...haruk ngan indon mabuk!

aku terasa stress

part I
minggu lalu...aku pulang ke KK bersama ayahanda dan bondaku...aku beri peluang tuk mereka merasa perasaan malas aku saat travel pergi n pulang...turun dari flight trus amek cab ke padang merdeka...di sana tunggu 1 jam lebih tuk keta penuh...tu satu yg
apak n mak aku rasa kesian kat aku...sampai di kudat mak apak aku nak duk kat ria hotel...hotel cantik...depa kata selesa...aku tunjuk tmpt2 penginapan biasaku...mak aku kata...bley ke duk tmpt camni? hahaha...malam itu aku jamu mereka dgn makanan yg aku makan spnjang di cni.bapak aku tak berselera...mak aku tak dapat telan...kata mereka tak kena rasa...rasakan la...naik ferri ke banggi...mereka mahu duduk depan...merasa la mereka gelombang laut sabah...nasib mereka baik angin
tak kuat...sampai di kerakit naik pick up...di awal perjalanan mereka kata sama mcm jln kat kampg mreka dulu...takla teruk sangat...masuk jalan core...terdiam masing2 mengenang keadaan aku tiap2 minggu ulang alik...sampai di rumah mereka terkedu...begini tempat aku tinggal...sekejap ja...tak sampai 10 min depa duk...kemudian pulang...aku suh mreka makan kat kedai mkn kawan aku...komen apak aku...sedap! kena citarasa depa...alhamdulillah...malam depa p makan sate yg aku war2kn sambil tgk sunset...romatik kan mak apak aku? hahaha...kmudian mreka berjimba di KK

anak punai anak merbah,
terbang turun buat sarang,
anak sungai pun berubah,
ini pula hati orang, mengapa dikenang?


part II
minggu ni aku banyak bergurau senda ngan big bros aku di sini...depa sme tensi
sbb tiba2 kena buat suklan final exam tuk thn 4,5 n 6 walhal mula2 dulu katanya tak perlu buat...minggu ni mingu rakan2ku stay up buat suklan exam...aku santai2 je...dah siap sblum raya...alhamdulillah...kalo tak haru aku ngan keadaan
emosi aku yg tak stabil (penyakit wanita)...ngan masalah bodo laki tak matured tu...ngan takde airnya...relaks ja...main game

asal kapas jadi benang,
dari benang dibuat baju,
barang lepas jangan kenang,
sudah jadi orang baru, mengapa dirindu?


part III
kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam lubuk
kasih yang baru simpan dihati

part IV
owh...membaca...kini trend rakan2 sekerja...huhu...mula aku baca secara public...kemudian ada yg menyusul kini sme tunjuk minat membaca...tu kerja baru guru2 pulau yg takde hidangan enak memanjakan minda selain bersukan (satu2nya aktiviti yang aku tak leh nak buat...takut sakit aku bertambah) currently masih lagi membaca me n mr darcy...bacaan terjejas kerna emosi kurang stabil

selat teduh lautan tenang,
banyak labuh perahu acheh,
jangan kesal jangan kenang,
walau hati rasa pedih, mengapa bersedih?


part V
minggu ni anto suklan exam...suklan aku telah diterima...tak banyak soal...cuma perlu touch up sket...suklan aku pun senang...potong2 dari buku ja...minggu ni aku buat latihan bersama2 anak murid..lepas exam aku rasa nak kasi depa tgk movie la...kartun ka...mana tah nak cari cd..nanti tanya rakan sekerjaku

kalau pinang masih muda,
rasanya kelat sudahlah pasti,
kalau hilang kasih lama,
cari lain untuk ganti, mengapa dinanti?

part VI
patah kan tumbuh, hilang berganti
akan sembuh, kalau diubati....sayang mengapa dirindu?

Move on n never will fall again.....

part I
officially SINGLE AND AVAILABLE

part II
SUMPAH DEMI ALLAH, SAYA NOOR AZREEN AHYAD TIDAK AKAN MENCARI2 BF LAGI...bila lelaki itu hadir aku harap dia hadir sebagai seorang suami dan bukan teman lelaki...cukup sudah segala pengalaman yang aku kumpul dalam soal bercinta dan aku sudah bersara...segala pengalaman ini tidaklah aku kesali malah aku syukuri kerna mereka2 telah membuat aku mengenali siapakah kaum adam itu sebenarnya...penat sudah aku bersiar2 kini masanya untuk melihat dan merangka masa depan...owh gaji mencecah 20ribu? owh sesuatu yg perlu dpkkn

part III
bila aku berjanji pada diriku...aku tidak pernah mungkiri...sering aku war2kn yg ini kali terakhir aku bercinta...maka bila ia berakhir...berakhirlah dia...doakan agar aku bertemu jodoh yg baik sepertimana yg telah dijanjikan Tuhan

part IV
kelmarin aku, guru2 prmpuan dan guru2 lelaki membincangkan isu agak menarik...seorg guru lelaki berkata lelaki sgt rasa rendah diri bila pasangannya lebih baik dari dirinya (akademik/status/even soal gaji)....spontan aku mengeluh...macam mana nak sambung master ni...ada hati gak nak amik phd....cikgu2 lelaki itu berpaling padaku lantas mereka sepakat berkata...baik jangan! aku blur...utk menjaga hati aku...salah seorang mereka berkata...kawin la dulu baru sambung...mulut aku yang takde pause ni menyambung...oh suami bagi ke nak sambung blaja nanti? jawapan guru lelaki itu..hmmm...sekian

part V
pertama kali dalam idop makan ikan bom! pertama kali bertolak dari rumah kul 3 pagi menuju ke jeti...

raya08

part I
nothing yg menarik raya ni...amatla DULL

part II
umpama retak menanti belah...aku tinggal blah ja grak SOLO kembali

part III
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part IV
rumahtanggaKU berantakan! sialan tul....

we did it!

aku-sharq-rufus-dell

ps:pic thanx to boboy...luv ya...muah...muah...hahaha

baca

part I
reading is currently my favvy past time activity...chewah...poyo!

part II
baru abeh baca yg ni...

my second Julia Quinn's novel....haru giler baca masa bulan posa...sib baik tgh naik bendera masa part xxx...hahahaha....aku ske crita setting Victorian ala2 Jane Austen style...malah aku minat citer2 si Jane tu...Julian pun mmg tulih citer camtu...aku baca la! hahaha...kisah novel ni pun ala2 kesah aku...cuma tolak part2 terlampau tu...sib baik org Islam...kalo tak dah buat gak...haruk sangap! hahahaha

part III

Currently tgh baca buku ni...recommanded by deanna...best gak...flow cerita sempoi...bahasa juga mudah dihadam...tambah2 lak aku mmg ske Mr.Darcy!!!! damn!!! dia adelah jejaka idaman aku seperti Emily dlm novel ni...aku jua tanam impian mahu memiliki Mr.Darcy ku sendiri...arghhh!!!!

part IV
dapat duit raya kang(kalo dapat la) aku nak angkut citer ni...

yg version UK-publisher little black dress jual baru RM19.90....so murah...leh aku angkut...penyakit amnesia cam menarik ja...hahaha...huh....harap2 aku tak terbawak2 hingga terlintas difikiran mau buat penyakit ni jadi realiti...tapi dari zaman skola aku amat tertarik ngan penyakit ni...make up new identity...fresh! giler nak mampos agaknya aku!

part V
perubahan yg perlu aku syukuri...dari seorang yg amat pemalas...kini aku mesti membaca! kalo tak aku pening2 kepala dan rasa idop ni kosong...tu yg skrg ni aku ske beli cleo...novel2...aku ske membaca...good for me....jadi guru bahasa u have to develop that culture in you...baru anak murid menyusul...well ya...sekarang aku ske membaca...serious shit I LOVE to read!

part VI
Do not be in a hurry, the right man will come at last - Jane Austen

from Sunrise Hotel tu Summer Lodge

part I
perjalan pulang ke malaya memakan masa yg terlalu lama...hahaha...takpe...aku happy....asal pulang ngan slamat....pulang beraya! hahaha

part II
owh...senin lepas aku n matno masuk pulau...angin barat mmg tgh kemuncak bertiup...feri nak jalan gak...aku, matno, rosli n nadia gamble masuk pulau dlm keadaan laut bergelora hebat...feri tu terlambung2 ala2 main pirate ship kat genting...hampir terbalik gayanya...ape yg aku matno buat..."gelak"! tu je...yg kuar spontan...alhamdulillah sampai...khamis lak kuar tuk cuti raya...bekejar feri...feri penuh...tiket abeh...tapi keadaan laut cukup tenang...khabarnya ari jumaat angin patah balik...haih...susah idop cni...patut depa bagi pedalaman 2...huih

part III
turun dari feri khamis...check in kat Sunrise hotel ngan matno n ustaz...haha..of course 2 bilik...g bazar ramadhan..berbuka ngan 2 bodyguard aku tu...sambil membuli pekerja warung...hahaha...bukan aku...tapi ustaz! hahaha..malam kuar lagi...prasahur...huhuhu...layan ustaz bercerita di tambah ngan matno mulut tak brenti ckp n disulami sore aku yg kadang2 mencelah...ade je cite depa...lepak sampai larut malam tu (istilah larut mlm di kudat...k...bukan smenanjung punya late nite)

part IV
suk pagi...bertolak ke KK ngan matno...haih...matno lagi...cakap tak henti2...hahaha..mana la ko yat! kalo ko ade...save tenaga aku! hahaha...sampai KK...cari check in kat Summer Lodge...happening tempat ni...tempat lepak mat saleh...wifi dlm bilik! muahaha....petang kuar cari kedai gunting rambut matno...pastu bli slipa jamban aku...pastu balik bilik...catch dzull lak yg baru jati org kaya...g bazar ramadhan...balik bilik aku buka bersama2...duk bersila depan pintu...sme mat saleh pandang...pekejadah la yg depa buat ni (dlm translation aku..muahahaha)...borak2 sampai kul 7 lebih...hotel ni takdak ayaq lak! haram tul...aku bertenang...cuci tgn pun tak sberapa tapi terhibur sbb Mr.C called me...borak2..dah lama tak dgr suara dia...sweet sungguh curi2 call masa g tandas...hahaha...nyata dia sgt bz sampai kena buat gitu...malam kul 9...kuar supper/pra sahur ngan 2 jejaka idaman sabah! hahaha...matno n dzull...mlm ni special...dzull blanja BK! waaaaaaaa!!!! cambiasa...borak2 lepak2...lewat malam pulang...pulang tak trus tido...aku layan wifi..sampai tertido

part V
yup malam ni aku pulang...dzull da balik tadi pagi...matno g kuala penyu...tinggal aku ja...jap lagi nak check out...letak barang kat sini...g pasar filipina sat...kalo ade masa g shopping complex cari novel ke...tgkla camna...kul 6 bertolak ke terminal 2..buka posa sana...hopefully tak meriah sgt...penat sungguh idop jadi traveller ni...huhuhu...k geng...jumpa di smenanjung....slamat ari raya!

pulanglah ku merindui mu sayang!

XARA: damn! I miss few peeps madly!

I've been tagged by Popo...argh!!!

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.


1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
X: good bye...move on

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be
X: jutawan seketurunan

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
X: me

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
X: invest it

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
X: trouble

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
X: being loved...yes I'm selfish

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
X: this long

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
X: keep it as secret

9. What do you pray each day for your loved one?
X: terpelihara

10. What takes you down the fastest?
X: pupils

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
X: married n a successful business woman

12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
X: home-family-fiance

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
X: Po? sexy? hahahaha...no...no...crazy...yup...she is crazy

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
X: married...aku mau jadi umat Nabi Muhammad

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
X: 5.45am...ya ALLAH! dah terang benderang! subuh aku!

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
X: nope

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
X: Mr.Cool

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
X: I seldom forgive peeps but I do forget them...hahaha

19. Your favourite kuih raya?
X: tat nenas n halwa maskat!!!!


I will tagged this people and you are compulsory to do this tag thing !!
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lebaran

Place: Kampung Maliyu, Banggi, Kudat, Sabah
Time: 5.45pm
Activity: At the jeti on the way back from kadai after bought a bottle of Sprite for berbuka puasa while angin barat bertiup kencang
Snapper: Azreen
Tool: W810i

ATTENTION! tolong hormati copyr8 ini pic...aku snap...aku edit...aku guna...org lain tgk ja...ribuan trima kaseh

sakit2 blakang ngangkut beg....

part I
berenang2 aku kelemasan...kerja tak banyak tapi tertekan...aku terlepas marah anak murid...nada aku jelas...
aku kecewa...usaha aku mengajar BI umpama tidak bermakna...aku faham English tak penting buat mereka tapi please
learn something...this is the reason why u r going to school!!! dah darjah 3...F_og pun tak leh nak completekan!!
badigol! pe ja yg hangpa buat kat skola dalam masa 3 tahun ni?! bila aku kata takyah hangpa ni sme datang skola...
suk ngadap muka depa gak...tapi buku tak bawak...pencil takdak...siap tak bawak beg lagi tu...ko dtg skola nak
main kat padang ja?!ikut ati mati budak2 ni aku maki...mmg ari2 da maki pun...saja pekurangkn pahala posa aku...
haram tul! ahhh! lantak la! niat aku nak bagi depa blajaq..ape gaya aku buat tu ske ati-otak aku la...sesungguhnya
aku tak ske mengajaq! teaching is not my speciality...sekian

part II
owh...tersentuh ati aku bila anak murid dari kalangan kelas terjal (kelas reban ayam yg dibenci guru2)...
marah aku tak masuk kelas ngajaq depa senin lepas...aku dgn lembut berkata...aku takdak kat skola...aku berurusan
di Kudat...dia ingt aku dah tak nak ngajaq depa...alhamdulillah...biar tak sme at least ade yg mula minat blajaq
BI...usaha berdikit2 aku mula tampak hasil...hasil ujian juga menunjukkan anak murid aku hanya faham dan ingt
topic yg aku ajaq...topic2 yg lalu depa tak tau langsung ape yg depa blajaq..kesian juga aku ngan depa...aku hanya
mampu berdoa agar depa jadi manusia...

part III
kala tak berduit ni...mula rasa macam mana perasaan berhutang keliling kain baju kurung...apak asek top up duit...
gaji tah bila tah masuk...tah2 tak masuk...muahaha...bodo ...berkhidmat tuk negara secara percuma...suk da bergaji
siap kena sedekah lagi kat krajaan tu...pastu depa p naya kita...naik skali 70sen...turun takat 15-10sen ja...
konon cukup prihatin la tu...da abeh prihatin la tu APAK oi...kat sabah org masih duk dalam rumah dinding nipah...
jalan cam baru kena bedil ngan askar jepun...ayaq minta belas ehsan ujan...hang buat pa ngan duit kami APAK oi?
tringin aku nak bawak khairy masuk banggi...bleh tak dia berhujah seangkuh gayanya di Rembau? auw!

part IV
penghijrahan aku ke Kudat banyak bawak rahmat...luas pemandangan aku...begitu jua pemikiran dan cara aku menilai
erti kehidupan...dari diri yg terasa sprti makhluk asing di sini...kini aku dah bleh blend well ngan keadaan
sehinggakan aku rasa kekok tatkala di smenanjung...eh tak perlu buka aircond...tak panas ni...eh aku mandi ni dah
lebih satu baldi...bazir ni...eh mewah sgt lauk ni...makan ikan goreng cecah kicap ngan nasi panas dah cukup...ah
lecehnya kena iron baju...huih dah lama tak tgk bil letrek ngan bil ayaq...sewa rumah? camna eh? petrol dah turun
10sen lagi? dah murah ke tu? biasa brapa? sblum jalan kena masuk gear satu? owh...complecatednya..Allah! jem? takda
pam bot ka kite leh sewa ke? hahahaha...

part V
ampai-letak
tapok-sorok
limpas-lalu (lalu=prkataan lucah...so jgn sebut tumpang lalu! mampos ko!)
bah-jgn ske2 letak bah kat blakang...dalam suklan takleh letak bah (cth: nak kemana bah?)
boleh bah kalo kau-untuk ko minta ape pun bleh
simpan-letak/taruh (dlm masakan...cth: sudah kau simpan garam dlm lauk tu?)
kelmarin-semalam (tiada istilah semalam dlm kamus org sabah)
kelmarin dulu-kelmarin
peraut-pengorek pencil

ps: aku tak terpengaruh sgt ngan bahasa2 ni...so tak banyak yg aku pick up...aku banyak bantai bahasa jhr-riau aku.
paling tidak jd guru bahasa klate kat kawan2 aku...kekadang guru bahasa utara...english jua

part VI
bermula journey ku pulang beraya...pertama kalinya lagu raya cukup enak tuk didengar...gambaran kampung halaman
smuanya indah...kebiasaannya amat membosankan lagi menyampahkan...kali ni nyata special...coma aku rasa sprti
useless...xdapat duit raya n xada duit mau bagi duit raya...ape nak jadi la aku ni...adeh senak perut aku..
lapo lak trasa...owh RAMADHAN...aku akan merindui mu!

ahha...ahha...

part I
atas permintaan aesha...kisahnya GB aku tolak pintu rumah tapa beri salam...nampak sgala 'isi' rumah...cam haram! bukan skali...tapi 2 kali...cam haram!

part II
owh...aku dah abeh baca novel setebal 350ms...thanx tu 'kesunyian' pulau yg aku diami...balik raya aku nak beli novel 500ms...bior aku mampos layan buku ja...

part III
lagu aizat...fikirlah...ulang2 dgr...begitu juga lagu tinggalkan aku by anuar zain...again n again...layan! skali skala rasa kecewa...why not?

angin barat...

part I
dua minggu tersadai di pulau...tak kuar bandar...antara penyebab: kena represent guru mata pelajaran English
for UPSR...weekend kengkawan malas nak kuar...angin barat bertiup amat kencang bawa hujan lebat-laut bergelora

part II
jiwa aku bergelodak sekali...sekuat gelombang ombak dilaut yg hampir menenggelamkan kapal dek kerna angin barat

part III
surat tawaran yg dinanti2 dah tiba akhirnya...kata cik kerani urusan gaji telah dilaksanakan...bila gaji? brapa
gaji? wallahua'lam...asal bergaji udah...aku tak larat nak pk...

part IV
kejadian celaka berlaku diskola...org yg patutnya menjadi payung dan menjaga kebajikan aku...dia lak yg menceroboh
rumah guru2 perempuan...perbuatannya aku takkan ampunkan sampai mati...blajarla tuk menghormati kaum hawa

part V
anak2 murid numpang di rumah...mentaliti anak pulau...masih gemar cerita2 hantu...bukan salah..tapi dah menghampiri
kurafat...lebih takutkan hantu dari Tuhan...janji Allah bahwa si syaitan telah diikat seperti tidak dipercayai...
masih ade hantu berkeliaran? awas! ketakutan melampau itu seperti menyekutukanNYA...jgn mengganggu ia maka tak
terganggu la ia...hati2 jgn sampai mati hati

part VI
nature aku tidak ske org yg tak menjaga adab tertib menuntut ilmu...aku lebih banyak membuang masa membetulkan
cara duduk anak murid ku di kelas...minta mereka tumpu perhatian...letih jadi guru...mendidik dan mengajar dalam
masa satu jam...mana terlarat...tapi ini amanah katanya...aku jalankan aje...mereka mahu atau mereka tidak berminat
itu tugasan mereka sebagai pelajar...jgn besok kamu cakap kat anak2 kamu, kamu tak pernah blajar
English, blajarla sesuatu walaupun sedikit...rayuku

part VII
sedih aku...tatkala aku kesunyian ni...si dia pula terlalu sibuk sampai nak msg pun tak sempat...haih..aku dah mula
rasa tak best...bukan la aku mahukan perhatian 100%nya...tapi aku trpk...bila dah berumahtangga nanti apa aku leh
tahan? weekdaysnya dia santai...aku sibuk mengajar...weekend santaiku...dia lak pack ngan function...bulan puasa
bulan berehat2...dia sibuk yg teramat...raya? bertambah2...buat masa sekarang aku skadar terasa...kalo sudah
sebumbung...ini isu BESAR...blum lagi masuk isu dah beranak pinak...hoi! rumit! I'll never give up my job...so?
Eh...aku buang jauh2 isu kawen mawen ni...rasa fade up lagi menyampah...sux! rasa mcm tergesa2 tapi umur da nak
masuk 25...apa lagi alasan mau bertangguh2? honestly, aku tak terasa ape2...tak rasa perlu kawen...tapi aku perlu
pk skrg...kalo tidak bila lagi? kalo dilayan perasaan...sampai 40 pun tak terasa ape...eh...rumit

part VIII
Ya Allah! Aku panjatkan kesyukuranku kepada MU ya Rabbi...di bulan Ramadhan ni...ade rasa ketenangan...ade rasa
bermaknya idopku...ade rasa syukur kerna diuji sebegini...terbuka mataku...terbuka mindaku...bertambah pengalamanku
makin jauh perjalananku...kesusahan membuahkan kegembiraan...somtimes you get to go through the pain to experience
the joy

part IX
16 sept gi ayaq terjun bungga ngan guru2 sk padangku...'menggila' kami! hahaha...it's nice to see they are
that sporting...aku happy...cuma kederatku tak mengizikan aku tuk join sekaki bersama berendam...tapi aku happy

part X
kata sorg kawan...ko dah nampak kurus la! hahahaha

it's raining...

part I
minggu ni aku dapat ckp ngan tunang aku ari2...yeay!

part II
weekend ni best sket...dapat makan kueh bercitarasa smenanjung...yeeehhaaaaaa!

part III
weekend ni gak jalan berbatu jauh dibawah terik matahari di bulan posa...kawan aku kata kedai tu dekat! huh! dia buli aku!!!!

part IV
aku sakit blakang!!!! waaaaa!!!!

part V
aku rindu family aku! aku rindu teddies aku! aku rindu katil yg best dirumah! aku rindu curahan air yg deras di bilik air rumah! aku rindu masakan yg enak lagi pedas!

part VI
aku diminta bantu pelajar masa UPSR? what a dirty job!

puasa di pulau...

part I
aku happy ade kawan2 sepulau yg ske masak...atleast aku 'terhibur'

part II
puasa di pulau amat perit...rutin sgt memenatkan...tangan aku makin kasar...wajah n badan dah tak terbelai...nak kencing pun malas (kena tadah air n pakai tudung-cam haram toilet kat luar!)

part III
dikala ini aku terkenang pesanan lecturer yg aku hormati...Ustaz Kabuye...aku melalui ujian tuhan yg tak ternilai katanya..aku diduga kerna aku dikasihiNya...SubhanAllah! aku amat gembira...namun aku tetap doakan yg terbaik buat diriku dan aku pohon agar sentiasa dilindungi dari malapetaka dan perkara2 yg tidak elok...sukar idop sendirian di bumi asing...

part IV
di bulan Ramadhan...bertarawih aku di surau berdekatan...alhamdulillah...aku happy lagi tenang...tiap2 malam aku dan rerakan bergerak meninggalkan rumah...merentas padang skola...lalu semak samun sambil ditemani taburan bintang2 dan bulan yg jelas molek kelihatan swaktu ke surau...aahh...kehidupan kampung...indah umpama cerita2 yang biasa aku dgr dari org tua...simple

part V
sakit tulang blakang aku kembali!!! damn it! satu-satu ujian aku terima...aku tabah...aku kena tahan...aku tak mampu nak bayar duit biasiswa...aku musti tabah...berakit2 kehulu...brenang2 ketepian...bersakit makit sengsara dulu2...bersenang2 tidak kepastian....muahahaha....Ya Rabbi! ENGKAU maha mengetahui!

part VII
darling I miss u!!!!!

part VIII
my teddies!!!! I miss them so damn much!!!!

puasa vs kegemukan

part I
slamat berpuasa kalian....

part II
aku makin gemuk...n dah tak terbendung...tolong jgn ingt aku melawak...aku serius

part III
dikala di Kudat...keinginan aku adalah tuk makan sambal goreng jawa dan sate!

part IV
makin berdebar aku...tugasan makin banyak...aku mula rasa tertekan...harap aku akan jadi guru yg baik...

part V
bercanda bersama rerakan seKudatku di Kudat...bersahur bersama...kalian umpama nyawaku

part VI
aku terharu...dia amat penyabar....waaa!!!!! aku sayang dia sangat2!!!!

part VII
aku rindu Asya-Kimura-Kaseh-Chenta!

move on...

part I
tercampak la aku ke bumi asing yg tak pernah aku tahu nama tmptnya sblm ini

part II
maka bermula la kehidupan aku di sebuah pulau di daerah Kudat, Sabah yg diberi nama Pulau Banggi

part III
org Sabah kalo kena posting Pulau Banggi pun leh nanges...abih ko ingt aku org Malaya ni gumbira ka? ape perlu berhore? Dah kalo sme tak mau ke sana sape mau ngaja anak bangsa? takkan nak buat cam zaman penjajahan sm skola kat bandar2....perlu ade yg bekorban dan aku salute guru2 yg sanggup

part IV
malam pertama aku di pulau...aku menitiskan air mata...sedih...sme yg terlalu baru dan amat mendadak...dari bandar bermandi lampu neon ke kwsn pedalaman yg hanya berteman sebiji lampu serumah yg dijana kuasa solar...dari hingar bingar bandar ke kesunyian sebuah perkampungan di pulau ade kala trdengar hempasan ombak laut sprti cuba memujuk ati yg kosong...dari keseronokan berdansa di mall2 mewah ke kedai comel papan yg berlantai tanah...dari keselesaan memecut di jalan berturap yg lurus ke jalan kampung yg berbatu dan belekuk....

part V
tak banyak benda yg bley aku buat...rutin harian ku:
1) 5am-solat subuh
2) 6am-tadah air sebaldi tuk mandi
3) 7am-sarapan bersama rerakan
4) 730am-ngaja
5) 1pm-lunch+zohor
6) 2pm-basuh baju
7) 4pm-cari line/main badminton/baca novel/tgk awan
8) 530pm-mandi
9) 7pm-dinner
10) 9pm-cari line
11) 10pm-tido

part VI
di Sabah...berkenalan ngan ramai kawan baru...rakan2 TESL dari mktb penang jd rakan seperjuangan yg amat memahami...trimas kalian! guru2 di skola amat prihatin...maklum la guru prmpn pertama dari smenanjung...sme tampak concern...ari2 tanya "OK cikgu duduk sini?"....takut aku angkat kaki agaknya...tapi aku ok...slagi aku trdaya...slagi itu la aku di sini

part VII
dikala ini...aku juga masih smpt berkeliaran bersama rerakan kluang ku...makin tak btul aku tgk...suk dah bergaji aku rasa makin tak btul...jd cikgu buat kami makin tak btul...anak2 murid jd mangsa...no..no..no...kami adelah mangsa murid2..sape kata jd cikgu senang...kerja stgh hari...cuti banyak...yg jadikan anak2 org bijak atau bodo adelah kami...tugas berat tapi org kata senang...cuba duduk sehari kat dalam kelas...tgk...leh handle tak kelas...hahaha...coba

part VIII
isu tunang munang pun makin galak dicanang oleh rerakan...istilah tunang aku=bf/gf aku...maaf but we have to...but how I wish it can be true...usia dah nak masuk 25 takkan nak tunggu 30 baru terkocoh2 cari jodoh? bila nak kawen? bila nak beranak? dah kalo masyuk sgt kumpul harta...sape lak yg brani masuk minang...kalo ade yg meminang...tagha tu pun mak apak masih memilih...mau cari yg setaraf katanya...brapa kerat ja lelaki yg leh fullfill requiment sebegitu...asal yg beriman lagi sayang kat kita...bagi aku da cukup...yg penting beriman! tu pun brapa kerat ja lelaki yg leh jadi ketua rumah skrg ni...yg leh imamkn solat sekeluarga...yg leh ngaja anak2 ngaji...yg leh menjaga keselamatan seisi keluarga...huh...ntah la...aku tak mencari yg sempurna tapi biarlah dia seorng yang beriman...amin.

part IX
kala ini juga...aku mengisi masa lapang dgn bermain cake mania 2 disulam dgn menonton youtube...kekadang layan YM...curi2 smsing atau happy call...godek2 fs-ms-fb-fp

part X
sme org dah move on...begitu jua dia...aku, masih brthn tak perlu dedah secara besar2an umpama bina spanduk "we are madly in love!"..like who cares? org lain pun bercinta juga...kali ini...bukan tuk tatapan umum...sket2 tunjuk da berpunya sudah...tak perlu huhahuha sgt...I've learn my mistakes

last blog

part I
last blog dari smenanjung

part II
buh-bye all! taking care ya...

29july

perasaan ini amat hebat...sudah di perjelas dgn terperinci kepada dia yg berhak...maka dia kembali pulih malah dtg dgn azam baru yg lebih hebat...perasaan ini bukan untuk dikongsikan di sini...skadar mletak kata sebagai penanda arini AKU OFFICIALLY a NEW PERSON!

XARA

Dearest fwenz,

I'm moving to Sabah...merantau cari pengalaman di tempat org...

dlm keadaan yg tidak menentu...I'm not sure whether I'll be able to make myself on9 (aku tak sure ulu mana aku tercampak kat sabah tu)

bagi mreka yg bakal bertunang/kawen...awal2 aku mohon maaf tak dapat memeriahkan majlis kalian n doaku smoga berbahagia slalu...(oho...mjlis aku sudah pasti tidak menyusur dlm masa terdekat ni...dun worry)

however dun worry...I'll do just fine...idop musti dtruskn...cuma dikesempatan ini aku mahu memohon ampun dan maaf atas segala kesilapan ku terdahulu atau akan dtg...halal makan minum aku...kalo aku ade utang sila hubungi aku atau waris aku di smenanjung ni...doakan kesejahteraan aku dunia akhirat sepertimana doaku tuk kalian jua dan ingatan korg pada aku amat aku hargai...

owh ya...bila sudah cukup pengalaman dikutip aku pasti pulang ke kampung halaman...

with luv,
XARA

ape ye...

part I
aku: You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong
leadership role in relationships. You make good decisions and make the
right choices at the right time. You dream of a romantic relationship.

dia: You are the cute and lovable type. You are picky but always in love...and
likes being loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable
with people, nice, soft and they can love you for the way you are. Likes
people who are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable.

A-P

part I
happy has arrived at last! hahaha....musim gayut 45mins is back! yeah!

part II
one step to commitment...I'm amazed with my Mr.Cool..he is highly confident n motivated...sgt memberi impact kepada kehidupan aku...hahaha...for now I'm happy with my new relationship...I told a friend of mine that this is one super real JODOH DARI LANGIT...he is almost perfect...if we have to end this relationship (which I pray NOT!) I'll never forget him like forever! huh...cam nak nangis lak...ahaks...I guess this is how it feels when u final met ur MR.R8 aite! everything seems to be r8!! hahaha...aku gementar but I'm happy

part III
keberantakan institusi persahabatan secohort ku kini bukan kerna dinner seperti biasanya...tapi soal posting...haha...sme tak sabo2...mak apak aku jua kalut...aku relax ja...nak kalut mende...akan bkrja juga akhirnya...bawak2 la bersabar...doa banyak2 smoga lancar smenya...yg nak pusing2 nape?

part IV
(hasil survey)

fit to commit because you know what you want
You don't need us to tell you that you're on the right track. A cool and confident person, you know what you want; now it's just a matter of finding it. Even more important, you know that love is about much more than what kind of clothes they wear or car they drive. And you're ready to make it work.

You've gotten to a place where you are happy with your life, and you're ready to share it with someone special. So whether you've found them or are still looking, know that this time, you'll get what you want.

*pengsan*

sedih but I'm happy?!

part I
haih...aku bersyukur kerna setelah lebih 100 kali aku pk mau terjun bangunan spnjang course aku ni tapi akhirnya aku dapat gak habihkan course ni n still alive!

part II
ya..aku mmg kureng ske ngan perkumpulan wanita..mreka terlalu beriya2 kalo bab2 nak melawa nak memeriahkan diri lagi menonjol2 di majlis umum...sgt memualkan aku...spanjang course skali aja aku hadiri dinner...tu pun sbb aku takleh nak lari lagipun aku beritahu pada diri...skali ni ja reen...skali ni ja...n honestly...amat merimaskan aku...aku lebih kpd majlis santai kerna tatkala itu para wanita supposingly berpakian biasa2 aja(kalo ade nak melaram...itu standard mreka)...jadi about this up coming yg baru diura2 mau buat majlis santai...hmmm...aku brpk...haruskah aku join sama? tgkla...kalo aku gile aku join la...mreka kata kalo tak nak hadir...pasti ade reason mreka sndri...jadi yeah...aku ade REASONnya...KUKUH!

part III
oho ya...about my man...ya...amat merinduinya...tapi ape bley buat...family aku amat traditional...aku tidak biasa mreka lihat brbf...jadi terperuk la aku didlm bilik takde mende nak buat...sibuk suh amek lesen keta tapi akhirnya takde keta tuk aku drive...huh...mual lak rasa....

part IV
seday aku ngan kehidupan skrg...mungkin kerna aku tak banyak berjalan...sambung menulis di lain kali...aku nak kuar ke dapur ja...tu ja perjalanan yg aku ade

teacher I miss you!

part I
"teacher I miss u!" a sms recieved from a pup...I do miss them making me their colorful clown! damn! hahahaha...

part II
today, our serawa derian dimasuki cicak...waiting for any of us whom will turn to a cicikman! hahahaha

part II
I miss my man so much! damn! how I wish I can be there r8 now! argh!!! it's always like this...hate it!

part III
I've just done reading 'on the way to the wedding' by Julia Quinn...I luv to read a victorian setting novel...I do read classical novel...but never finish it...hahaha sorry Jane Austin! hahaha

part IV
result 3rd sem dah kuar...hahaha...sengal but I'm glad it's over!

kali ni last...

part I
good morning, teacher!....last one to be heard

part II
thank you, teacher!...I'll walk n will never return

part III
hari2 terakhir di skola...rasa bercampur baur...menyampah...ske...sedih...rindu...sme ade...

part IV
mcm mana rasanya bila pagi2 sampai kat skola anak murid bersilih ganti menegur "assalamualaikum cikgu" "morning teacher"...masuk kelas..sme bangun n ucap salam...bila kau panggil sorg stud n meminta mereka mengangkut sgala harta ko yang maha berat...anak murid tu tak pernah membantah meskipun dia terpaksa mendaki 4 tingkat membawa buku rancangan mengajar ko yg suku berat mereka...bila ko sebut nama mereka...mereka akan pantas bangun dan menyahut...sesuatu yg ibu bapa mereka pun blum tentu dpt layanan se-exclusive begitu....this is what sorg penyajak bebas pernah kata...even a lawyer could not make this huge impact on human life...kala ko berdehem sme terdiam...kala ko berdiri sme bergegas ke tempat masing2...kala ko berjalan berlari mereka masuk ke kelas...di kala ini aku pk...ISTIMEWA tugasku...di offis yg dingin, berkerusi empuk, berlantai kapet aku tak dihormati sebegini lantas aku rasa hidup aku tak bermakna...ari2 ngadap komputer-kertas kerja-maki hamun bos...no human touch...

part V
so I was thinking the other day just what I should be after my 5 years contract...n surprisingly I couldn't think of any other job...let time leads me...aku follow je.

berdebar2

part I
minggu2 santai ku

part II
aku seperti sudah selesa di skola...sudah mula ske kanak2...ahha...kata sorg teman...tu PETANDA! hahaha...pekejadahnya

part III
minggu ni...bertugas menyambut ibu bapa yg hadir mau tahu perkembangan anak2 di skola..mereka dtg penuh harapan...aku mula rasa beban yg teramat berat aku galas selama ini...MENDIDIK

part IV
cikgu ni cantikla...hahaha kata2 sorg anak murid tahun satu...sorg anak murid tahun 4 pula berkata...eh cikgu ade lesung pipit...comel...hahaha...mreka terlalu jujur...muahahahahaha *pengsan*

part V
mendalami profession keguruan...aku salute kepada para guru...mereka berusaha...banyak yg aku pelajari...disbalik kekurangan mereka sbgai sorg manusia..mreka ttp MENDIDIK...mreka mahu anak murid berjaya...mereka MENDIDIK

part VI
oho minggu yg agak jiwa kacau...I've found THE MAN! (jodoh mmg jatuh dari langit!)

part VII
currently reading: on the way to the wedding by julia quinn
ulasan: tepat pada mood aku dikala ini

cerita minggu ini...

Part I
OBSERVATION TAMMAT!

Part II
penat campur2 malas....tapi aku happy;)

Part III
sadly minggu ni aku dpt tau dia dah takde...xpe tak leh nak paksa...ade reason kenapa dia tak ku hangkut ke masa depan ku...move on! dah dewasa...aku dah tak emosi soal2 begini...baik aku risaukan posting aku...

Part IV
sudah mau tammat pengajian n course aku tak diiktiraf?? KORANG NAK MAMPUS KENA BOMB AGAKNYA!

Part V
ape perasaan aku tatkala anak murid beratur dan salam smbl cium tangan aku...aku rasa aku banyak dosa ngan depa...sudah tentu tak layak tuk dihormati sebegitu

Part VI
aku dah ade anak murid favvy...hahaha...Iqbal! nanti aku post picnya!

Part VII
minggu2 so sial! hahahaha

minyak

part I
nothing much to say...aku lagi confuse...ape dah jadi ngan dunia?

part II
aku percaya ramai akan berstuju ngan aku...kite sudah sampai di penghujungnya...kiamat sudah dekat...terlalu dekat...teramat dekat...dekat...at

part III
it is too sad to see that no one can be trusted...talking about our own leaders? yeah..I wonder whom do they really lead now? we? I am not quite agree...they do not know how to serve...poor management I would say...it is all a poor management...we have been poorly manage by self claim elected leader...we need fresh young people here...they r too old for all of these...I believe they r just too tired...they need a break...step down? nah...it is too late for that...we need a quick action here...stepping down will not solve this n whom do you want to be the next leader...the one with high profile murder case? no...no..no...this is all wrong...go n figure it out before I lost my job...before I go starving with no food...before I have to involve in a war...before I have to be a pelarian...before...

part IV
sorg kenalan bertanya...ko rasa ko kawen umur brapa...ko punya soklan ni main pakai rasa2 lak...rasa2 mana la tahu...kecik2 dulu aku slalu rasa umur 25 tahun aku dah kawen...bkn nak ckp ape la dah masuk 24 n beberapa bulan ja lagi nak masuk 25...haram aku tak terasa nak kawen...aku bukannya pandai masak...dah kena blajar masak...bukannya rajin buat kerja rumah...dah kena blajo camna nak lipat baju...aku ni bukannya suka budak2...dah kena blajo2 pegang budak...eh...leceh nye! meleret2...ngan harga minyak naik ni mmg takde market la nak letak hantaran tinggi...in ur dreams la dey! jadi tunggu la bila aku rasa aku dah cukup kaya...aku leh tanggung diri sndri...ada duit lebih, baru aku kawen...woah! dah mcm laki punya ayat lak...skrg pompuan pun kena camtu...ko tak tau laki yg tah kerja ape bakal jd suami ko...ramai lelaki skrg yg diri sndri pun semput nak tanggung apetah lagi anak org ngan anak2 yg bakal lahir berderet kelak (aku rasa jumlah anak pun kena catu!)...hehehehe...pk2kn la...dunia dah nak kiamat...phm2 aje la ye lelaki....

part V
yeah musim cuti dah berakhir...ramai yg teman tgk dah slamat kawen ha...pepandai la korg manage kehidupan baru...beras dah mahal...minyak dah naik...brg2 pun sibuk naik...nak bayo sewa rumah lagi...suk kalo dah ade anak nak bayo pengasuh lagi...tu sorg...masuk 3-4 org...makan pakai derang lagi...tiket bas nak balik kampung pun dah mahal...dulu sorg2 tak terasa...ni dah beranak pinak...nak bwk keta duit minyak mahal...nak naik bas...tiket naik...naik ketapi takut masuk gaung...night flight la...guna MAS low fares! hahahaha...sasak la...baik single je buat masa ni...srabut aku tgk

part VI
in a nut shell...smuanya salah harga minyak yg naik 80sen! hahahaha....

a tourist...

part I
The traveler sees what he sees, the tourist sees what he has come to see.
- G. K. Chesterton

XARA: I'm a tourist!

part II
Lady: So when is the last time u visited Singapore b4 this trip?
Me: This is my frist after 12 years
Lady: Pardon?
Me: My first visit after 12 years la!

part III
bought a Singapore tee n a PUMA shoulder bag...I LOVE!!!!

part IV
planning to visit Singapore again! kali ni aku mau angkut perfume lak...letih yet I'm happy;p

i finally learn why.....

DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE PEOPLE IN YOUR PAST...THERE'S A REASON THEY DIDN'T MAKE IT TO YOUR FUTURE -quote from the net


XARA: a simple explaination for the most complecated problem in life

musim dating

Part I
coba elak meronda di bandar....musim coti skola ni...banyak budak2 berlagak hebat berpelukan...jalan guna gear satu sambil block perjalanan ku...ya ampun kanak2...aku tatkala berhingusan seperti kalian...idop aku hanya skola-pusat tuisyen-famili...kuar bersama kwn2 adela sesuatu yg dinikmati stahun 2-3 kali...kuar ngan bf jauh skali! korg dah bley begitu rupa sprti suami isteri...tiada yg istimewa ttg kalian...too bad...U r not enjoying ur life...kalo sme sudah 'merasa' di zaman muda...ape yg perlu kalian 'rasa' bila sampai di alam remaja sehingga la tua...tu yg end up buat benda yg pelik2...idop mesti merasa smua pringkat...xsme perlu bergerak ekspress sih!

Part II
oho...sbentar td sorg rakan lama menelefon ku...WOAH!!!! haru aku jadinya...I miss her so much la! she reminds me of our sweet days 2gether...hebat waktu tu...prkumpulan wanita yg untouchable! lelaki bukan takut tapi 'malas' mau deal ngan kami...hahaha...skrg sudah sukar mau kumpul sme srentak...sorg di NZ...sorg di kluang...sorg di mlaka...yg sorg ni hometownnya kini KK...adeh...sukar

Part III
tak sempat mau merisik 'statusnya' kini...kami slalu jangka dia yg akan bernikah trlebih dhulu...hahaha...bukan sembarangan tembak...dia sudah ade kualiti jd isteri org since form 4...hahaha...yg lain2 sudah tahu status...yg latest akhirnya berpacaran kmbali...syukur...kalo tak brubah dia mnjadi songsang! hahahaha...

Part IV
crita soal bf ni...2 org rakan akrab ku dari sahabat berempat itu berbfkn rakan skola...typical kata ku...lalu mreka hentam aku balik..."ko! aku nak tgk sape bf ko suk...jauh sgt ke orgnya sampai susah sgt ko nak jumpa...dpt budak skola kita gak...siap ko!"...ini bukan marah...tu AMARAN! hahahaha...[berusahalah mencari bf jauh2...gambate!]


Part V
sakit blakang-tulang temulang-urat2-sendi mendi....bowling punya pasal!

Part VI
aku rasa aku dah bosan ngan lelaki...hahaha...yeah...aku serius...too bad

read these...u learn sumthing

1-Imagination is more important than knowledge. -Albert Einstein

2-If music be the food of love, play on. -Shakespeare

3-The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing. -Walt Disney

4-Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the goal. -Henry Ford

5-I skate where the puck is going to be, not where it has been. -Wayne Gretzky

6-When you come to a fork in the road, take it. -Yogi Berra

7-We may affirm absolutely that nothing great in the world has been accomplished without passion. -Hegel

8-The life which is unexamined is not worth living. -Socrates

9-Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. -M.K. Gandhi

10-What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. -Zig Ziglar

11-"In theory, there is no difference between theory and practice. But in practice, there is." - Yogi Berra

12-"Don't be so humble - you are not that great." - Golda Meir (1898-1978) to a visiting diplomat

13-"There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it." - Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

14-"The man who does not read good books has no advantage over the man who cannot read them." - Mark Twain (1835-1910)

15-"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education." - Mark Twain (1835-1910)

I'm back aite?!

Part I
3 songs currently dok ulang2 dlm playlist aku....
> I'm back-Baby Bash
> Hanya Kau Yang Mampu-Aizat
> Warkah-Bau

Part II
currently jua sdg mengerjakan WEDDING DASH 2

Part III
hunger? yeah...dah umpama pelarian di rumah kluarga sndri...sumpah aku lapo ni!!!! aku rindu rumah sewa!!! kebebasan!!! shit la...skrg aku tau nape anak muda once dah kuar rumah family mereka jadi makhluk asing bila pulang smula bercuti...gile bosang!


Part IV
duit makin surut kawan! adeh...praktikum ni buang masa n duit aku!

Part V
Owh ya...aku pk aku mau sambung blajo...di mana? course apa? xpenting...yg penting aku harus sntiasa generate idea2 n strusnya menggerakkan minda aku...duduk di skul otak ku xkan berkembang...that's why cikgu is a bunch of peeps yg kalo jalan kat bandar pun org tau dia cikgu...why? sbb drg ade gaya bertindak n brpk mreka sndri (bak kata gb aku, cikgu punya portfolio ade human touch xsama dgn engineer JKR.heh?)...umpama alien berjalan2 di bandar...mreka tidak bercampur (campur sama org politik aja)...sbb xbrcampur kerna mreka xde social life...sbb ape xde social life...kerna mreka hanya idop ngan cikgu+anak murid+kekadang guru besau+tukang kebun+ade la sket2 tegur pak guard+kerani skola+pkerja am+extra effort kalo buat baik ngan abang kedai fotostat atau kedai buku.....SUX, I know.

Part VI
di kala ini aku hanya pk...ape aku nak makan...lapo sey...rentak famili aku mkn xsama ngan aku...sungguh la aku lapo...lapo...lapar...hungry...sangat2...amat...teramat...*mati kelaparan*

almost....

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

XARA: almost all r correct...

Scandal...

Part I
Drama kehidupan manusia antara si adam yg beristeri dan beranak 4 dgn si perempuan yg belum pernah dinikahi...ending cite...sux!

Prt II
yg penting pepandai la jaga diri...dunia dah nak kiamat ni mcm2 tanda besau dah kuar...tah2 dajal pun dah kuar...mana kite tau...insyaAllah...aku jaga ape yg aku ade..dignity skrg susah mau jaga lagi jangka...u can be an iron lady tp tumpas ditgn lelaki...u can be an imam yet tewas dgn nafsunya sndri...world towards kehancuran!

Part III
kawan ku bertunang....congrates bagi mereka yg bertunang n for those who r just counting days for their big day! congrates...me? next year? sape la yg pepandai tabur fitnah ni...muahahaha

Part IV
idop lebih bahagia tanpa skola dan lesson plan!

Part V
sandwich + latte = completes my morning!

arini aku nak brpk

Part I
u know when u reach an age of 24...u will just wonder...am I in the r8 track? I mean my life? the r8 job? the r8 man? the r8 frens? owh? am I in the r8 time to think about it or I'm just too late...too late?

Part II
ohoi! aku tak ske skola!!!! penuh ngan scandal! gossip! I just hate the politics! damn! brapa lama lagi ni! waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!! (ps:nape cikgu lelaki gatal iek?)

Part III
dah la tu...k...kali ni nak cite pasal melaka...u know what happen now? apak aku dah smb kerja sampai umuq dia 58...which means...dia takkan pulang ke mlaka as what we have planed b4...naya tul la...kalo la aku dpt posting mlaka...mati kering la aku...I'm thinking mau try ke terengganu(plan asal gue)...kalo tak pun sabah sarawak...kat smenanjung ni dah terlalu banyak problem...sesak aku tgk...baik duk dlm utan...dunia aku tak tau...takde la bimbang...my concern is that...asal takde anak babi sesat dlm rumah dah le...hahahaha...haih...how easy life can be...take it super slow n njoy each bits of it...life

Part IV
owh...aku cadang mau join drift la...hahaha...car racer club ka...huih...gile dah

Part V
masuk keta+start enjin+volume radio 22+tekan minyak+melalak sampai ilang sore!

love..love..me

ahha....

*bravo!*

"akak ni mudah putus asa la"

part I
yup that's what my mum said

part II
partly r8...mostly I guess but not all (ego) hahaha

part III
kata2 tu cukup 'pukul' aku balik...yes...for current situation...I must not give up...later aku yg gler kerja...

part IV
cried...cry...n still....

part V
oho...cermin keta dpan bullet proof! hahahaha

sombong!

org leh kata...
org leh jerit...
org leh nyanyi...
org leh maki..
org leh berbisik...

TAPI BILA AKU PEKAK, PASTI AKU TIDAK MENDENGAR

twentysomething n I'm already OLD, peeps!

XARA: there goes my teenage life..sob-sob


Twentysomething - Jamie Cullum

AFTER YEARS of EXPENSIVE EDUCATION(6 thn mkn duit rakyat),
A CAR FULL of BOOKS(+kertas fotostet) and anticipation,
I’m an EXPERT on SHAKESPEARE(whom we know from India?) and that’s a hell of a lot,
but THE WORLD DON'T NEED SCHOLARS(they just need more Eng teacher!) as much as I thought.

Maybe I'LL GO TRAVELLING FOR A YEAR(in ur dream la!),
finding myself or START A CAREER(no choice!).
I could work for the poor though I’m hungry for fame
we all seem so different but we're just the same.

Maybe I'll GO to THE GYM, so I DON'T GET FAT(trlalu spanjang idop kat mktb!),
aren't things more easy with a tight six pack?
Who knows the answers? WHO DO YOU TRUST?(kwn2 pun la ni xleh caya sgt)
I CAN'T even SEPERATE LOVE FROM LUST(delima remaja).

Maybe I’ll MOVE BACK HOME(blom tentu lagi syg oi) and PAY OFF MY LOANS(like duh?),
working nine to five answering phones.
Don't make me live for my friday nights,
drinking eight pints and getting in fights.

I don't want to get up, just let me lie in,
leave me alone, I'm a twenty something.

Maybe I'll just FALL IN LOVE that could solve it all,
philosophers say that that’s enough,
THERE SURELY MUST BE MORE(absolutely darling, absolutely!)

LOVE AIN'T THE ANSWER NOR IS WORK(so?),
the truth eludes me so much it hurts.
But I’M STILL HAVING FUN and I guess THAT'S THE KEY("unwise action"),
I'm a twenty something and I'll keep being me.


I’m a twenty something.
Let me lie in, Leave me alone.
I’m a twenty something.

pompuan gile!!!

part I
dah nak final...pompuan gile tu naik gile! hahaha...gile!!!

part II
malas la...nak exam tapi tak buat pape lagi ni...nganga....

part III
out! sakit ati bila ingt maktab...lari ke KL!

Darcy's Diary....

Part I
engaged with my Mr. Darcy's Diary....

Part II
the horrible midsummer's nite has just ended....thank God I'm still alive!

part III
I've to admit this...I miss him

part IV
owh....I end this week dgn prasaan yg amat menyampah...why always me? it's always me? kalo ku biar berminggu...minggu la ia kat situ...nak ku biarkan bertahun ke? bongok ah!

part V
buku library ilang....babi tul sape punya angkara!!!!

part VI
aku nak muntah ngan prangai bragging lecturer pompuan yg sorg tu...cam SIAL la pompuan tu...aku rasa dia layak untuk tidak dihormati...maaf...tapi aku rasa dia sesuai jadi isteri org kaya yg kayak ari2 chit chat aja n show off sme benda...bukan patut dia menjadi lecturer yg spatutnya berhati mulia n ikhlas mengaja bukan memiliki sikap angkuh memandang rendah sama studs lalu memperlekehkan mreka...ya kami BODOH...maka ajar la kami wahai cik BODOH SOMBONG!


part VII
kisah pengakuan rakan di malam lalu...aku sanjung! dia ade kekuatan mau membertahu skalian..."I do begin to pity her"....line dai script ku...mengajar yg lain agar lebih berhati2 dlm memilih teman idop...harus pk ngan waras...

part VIII
aku sude memiliki buku terakhir Harry Potter...tau lewat...tunggu harga jatuh...aku tidak mewah....huuu...dpt tee free lai! awooooo!

part IX
SAYA RINDOO SAMA KAMOO!

rindu GILE? gile RINDU?

part I
seksa presentasi udah abih...huhuhu...trimas buat kengkawan yg bagi kerja sama (even though I know korg letih)

part II
ingt seksa dah abeh...dtg lak on stage perfrmance...cam haram tul!

part III
perbalahan antara puak in class makin menjadi2...cam bahang pilihan raya lak...owh...aku ngundi di Kluang...jgn pandai cakap ja...kalo brani p ngundi la!

part IV
oho...g ngedate lai sama dia...hehehe....best...best...a partner yg leh di bawa bershopping bersama...tak banyak leceh (even though I feel like he is the one yg banyak kuar masuk kedai street wear dia...cis)...I'm happy...coma ade satu dua insidnt yg bikin aku panas ja...dasar pompuan tak tahu malu! tak malu ka sama kawan2 cis!

part V
wahaaaaaa!!! argghhhhh!!!! RINDU la!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAMMAT

part I
oho...bila cuti dah TAMMAT...tiba masa tuk fening2 kmbali...n owh masalah? ya...tak pernah putus!

part II
semasa abih SPM dulu aku prnah kata "this is the last time ever in my life, aku jejak kaki ke skola! hell!!" tu swaktu amek result exam...6 tahun kmudian aku kata.."believe me, skul? 5 years n I'm done!" ape benar hajat dicita?

part III
DURIAN TUNGGAL sounds familiar to me...kecik2 dulu slalu tanya my dad, "bah durian tunggal tu ade ape? bnyak pokok durian ke?" dah cecah 24thn...akhirnya aku kena berbakti pd tanah yg hanya ade satu durian? what the...?! ya...ya...untuk 3bulan je...tapi sudah cukup memualkn...maaf tapi aku mmg tak ske mengajar anak bangsa...sbb? I'm not a good person...akula generasi anak muda yg org tua2 slalu kate...bakal perosak anak bangsa...tapi mereka represent aku dlm nada yg lebih keji..."cikgu yg kencing berdiri"...oho ya kena ingt gak...anak bangsa skrg bukannya baik sgt pun...mereka dah JAHANAM dahulu sblm sampai skola

part IV
n so last week, sorg kawan timbulkan isu kawen mawen n hantaran...sum says it's once in a life time but others say what a waste. Gini la...kalo aku...I like thing as simple as it can be...nikah...majlis yg tetamunya tak lebih dari 1000? jemput sdara n kenalan terdekat udah le..kut la aku kawen ngan anak sultan ka...penyanyi popular ka....kena consider rakyat jelata/peminat2 si dia. tapi swaktu cuti 4 ari ini..aku menghadiri beberapa kerja kawen anak2 rakan lama daddy ku di ITM...ya, satu event yg menarik juga kalo mau mengumpul kenalan2 lama. tak kesahla brapa ramai tetamunya, kesederhanaan perlu ade...makan minum yg simple2 udah (sehari bukan kerja kawen ko sorg ja diaorg nak p)...yg penting ade ciri2 exclusive dan bukan massive! tak perlu bincang panjang2...ape yg aku leh kata...kepada bakal suami aku, I can promise you one thing...kamu tak akan fening

part V
....perjalanan pulang ke neraka jahanam....

beruang pun tak senang ati....

part I
minggu yg dinanti...masuk duit ribat2...woah! tabur duit...kite tabur je

part II
dah kaya pun tak senang ati....assignment melambak...praktikum huru hara...sme mende pun buat aku hangin!

part III
dia pun dah mrajuk dah...nape tah diam je...huh...tak senang ati gak bila dah kaya ni

part IV
nak buat treatment rambut pun payoh....org lain rambut leklok dah d-invest beratusan...aku rmbut dah nazak ni...KEDEKUT nak mampos! what's wrong with me?! huh

part V
n owh please la...aku srabut2 ni...jgn la korg2 buat aku makin haru...kasi aku HAPPY sket leh tak...

5 Januari.....

part I
the journey started @ 930am....went for McD breakfast @ McD Ayer Keroh with Zack...the event: she tried to push a PULL me door...so when will the door can be open? no body knows...

part II
Lalalala....arrived @ Pavilion n 'ngedate'

part III
met zack back at putra station @ 630pm...we start our journey back to Mlaka

part IV
sing a long lagu NO ONE by Alicia Keys...then we miss hentian Seremban...DAMN!

part V
decide to go to Seremban town...n a bit sesat lagi panic cause we failed to find the masjid negeri!!! later found it then we failed to found the dewan solat muslimah...damn!

part VI
when back to mlaka...and on the highway zack's car broke...and both of us seram sejuk all the way to maktab...we manage to arrived at maktab in one piece...buat drama swasta ngan pak guard

part VII
later we saw this one mistery 'thing' on the floor in the dark....thought that it was a dog...later we thought it 'something' in a box...the next day we found out that it is just an emty old box...damn!

part VIII
as a conclusion...I LOVE this trip n I'll say me n Zack...we can't travelled 2gether ever!!!!

Dari hati kini ku sedari...Tak semestinya ku berkasih

part I

sudah edit new playlist @ MS n FS

part II

Your Horoscope
CAPRICORN

Daily Single's Love: December 08, 2007

If at first you don't succeed, well, whatever with them -- move on and say hi to the next cutie! Cupid loves somebody who makes an effort. Show you're trying and some arrows will be flying!

XARA: hello new cutie!....nah I'm not in the mood to be GATAL yet....next!

part III

I just LOVE my MS new look!!!! woah!!!!

part IV
Dari hati kini ku sedari...Tak semestinya ku berkasih

CUBA kau CUBA....

part I
Adek aku blanja mkn kfc arini! yeay!

part II
giler main Wedding Dash! yeay!

part III
sudah ade matlamat idup...stability! yeay!

part IV
kite lupakan fwenstar dan kite buka BukuMuka! yeay!

part V
bilik asrama dah mcm rumah sewa...ade tb slim fit! yeay!

part VI
sem baru yg AMAT BERAT! yeay!

part VII
sme plan ujung tahun TERBENGKALAI! yeay!

part VIII
dgr lagu Cuba n Aku Punya Kamu by Faizal Tahir over n over! yeay!

I'll bore you!

part I
at last! aku miliki what I should own 6years ago! (oh please! this has nothing 2do with male!)

part II
huh...I've enuff...peeps around me r starting to sound stupid...have this one fren who I think GILA sudah...hahaha...dia gila tu ja yg aku leh kata...dun waste ur time with such gurl...gile!

part III
I've no idea...sepatutnya GUMBIRA tapi aku tak GUMBIRA pun...huh?

how can I forget this....

part I
my visit to Shah Alam? oh no....how can I forget this....

part II
not bad...AS is half dead city so there is almost NOTHING interesting things to do here...so staright away from Kluang tu Uitm SA....

part III
attending Istiadat convo....of whom? my bro's gf....yup...my bro's gf...aha...that's right...my bro's gf

part IV
nothing much happens...except me cuci mata with all those yummy looking bananas? hahaha...they spell the word DELICIOUS totally in new way...I guess that's what happen when you've re-enter the female rehab center (oh my IPPM...suxy!)

part V
the day was completed after me, my bro n our mum....went to stadium SA tgk bola! hahahaha...yet it's a bit disappointed...last minute goal (own goal to be exact) saw JFC add only 1 point to their resume....damn! they deserve to WIN! selangor team PEMALAS nak MAMPOS!!!! arghhhhh!!!!

part VI
hey ho....I'm currently listening tu suria.fm (ok forget about the boss n erra case which I hate so much)...the station is happening...really CERIA n more songs less talk...cool! they really mean it...n owh...less IKLAN too! salut!

part VII
I miss my campus life...I miss IIUM!!!! I miss going straight away to KLCC n just hangout! feel malas to sampai kat campus...singgah KLCC lepak2 ngan beg balik kampung...I miss a situation went a lecturer lock the door n u r no longer can enter the class...we decide to makan @ HS or went to KLCC! uh...ah...huh....I miss that COOL life style...I miss wondering around the city n catch the last bus at 11pm! I miss those moment....yet we can perform well in our examination....damn IPPM is super suxy! subject is super sux...lecturer is just wasting my time...the rules is just a great all time bluff!

Friends are for life....BF come n go!

part I
lepak with my Kluang gurls (though kurg sorg)

part II
we talked about study-fellow fwenz-love life.....4 hours is not enuff aite!? huhuhu

part III
Kluang town is nothing...we just lepak @ KFC then pulang...poor thing...we've grown up I guess...dulu leh ronda2 satu bandar...cam sronok...skrg Kluang town is not our playground anymore....so plain n dull...almost dead!

part IV
next week insyaAllah gi berbowling...

part V
berjoging mungkin sama Een n pasang merpati dua sejoli tembam cam kena pam, khairi n ina! hahahaha.....kena kurus kang roboh lak plamin! muahahaha....lama tak jumpa...can't wait

part VI
God! Khairi, please la....stop asking me with such 'killing' question.....bf ko mane? bf aku kat mane2 aje la! chait! bedebah tul....I'll kill you! I'll kill you!

part VII
me n een, we agree on sumthing...kite blajo n blajo n blajo pastu kerja n kerja n kerja n kerja n kerja n kerja....tunggu sampai bakal suami2 kami udah kaya raya baru kawen...muahahahaha....takde maknanya.....ade kemungkinan tak kawen kalo dah lagu tu perangai....I make my mum worry....shhhh.....hahahaha....mata duitan? atau alasan tuk cover ketidak sediaan tuk bercommitment? only we n God knows! hahaha

part VIII
I realise sumthing....I'm addicted to independent tees!!!! hahaha....can't wait to spend all the money I own at RANTAI this dec!!!!!!!!!

I'm ADDICTED to....

part I
my current addiction list

part II
addicted to JRock + JSka

part III
addicted to rare rock band...listen...u'll understand why

part IV
addicted to fragrance....it's start with Fantasy....now Happy

part V
addicted to speed! drive fast it will never kills you! hahahaha

HURUharaHARU!

damn le! fs giler...ms...ym...lab maktab biol>!:>{!$%^*)(^%#@#^%$#@

hold on LOVE...go on STUDY...

part I
when it comes to an age of 23 for a lady like me...you don't want to mess up with your life anymore....It's a time to reach stability and positive progression

part II
when it comes to LOVE life at this age, I wish I can BE WITH SOMEONE that ready to get SERIOUS and SETTLE DOWN for good...come accross with a bunch of guys who still want to PLAY at their own playground...meet-say hi-and get lost! Better me alone rather than announcing we are bf-gf thingy....rubbish!

part III
for some men who feels like they need to complete their life before getting serious...well good for you...carry on and we'll meet later...InsyaAllah

part IV
for now same here...I don't meet any steady guy for steady relationship...then let it be...I need to go on with my life...my final sem...praktikum on the way...my feauture teaching profession...my Korea-Japan-Paris trip...LORD!

part V
for the time being...me will be busy with my study and later on I'll talk about love when me truly meet ONE!

part VI
listen to my Siti Nurhaliza's all time favvy...USAH DIRAGUI (uploaded at my music)

nasi ayam + jambu batu....

part I
raya blom sudah kawan2!

part II
anne + deanna + kak chik menyerang! hahaha

part III
drang best! makan tak tolak....the journey was fun!

part IV
tgk cite Rajinikanth...gile aku nganga! woah! HEBATNYA dia!

benci TAPI sayang!!!

part I
am I mad?

part II
satu perasaan yg aku ingt satu masa dulu hanya dimiliki oleh org gilak!

part III
2 songs that currently sdg dijiwa2kn....hate that I luv you by Rihanna+Ne-yo and over you by Chris Daughtry.....

part IV
wei...I miss JB n I miss org JB! hahahahaha....

part V
citer 30 days nite cam siaaaallllll!!!! argh!!!!!

part VI
I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY!!! lalalalala.....

the unfinished business....

part I
Ya it's still raya peeps

part II
I've eat a lot n now I'm all GEMUK!

part III
kluang-batu pahat adventure raya convoi is so HAPPENING!!!

part IV
after 6 years together....this is the first time I'm visiting my dearest kluang-batu pahat clan's house....so sad yet so true n so happy! yuppy yup yup!

part V
planning to have the second tour next year....reunion style!

part VI
maybe next time leh try braya at other negeri too....n this time mlaka is my hometown! yeah so true....

I am SINGLE!!!

:: I DECLARE ME-SELF SINGLE N AVAILABLE ::

-sekian yg benar = XARA -

aku sayang semua orang!!!

Part I
sakit EXAM datang melanda aku...

Part II
I dun understand anything!!!!

Part III
I miss my home so much...I miss my parents....I miss Asya!!!

Part IV
I like him (II)

Part V
I love n miss him so much (I)

Part VI
Ya Allah...ampuni dosa ku...berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi segala dugaan yg ko hujani ku, Ya Rabbi!

so...what is raya?

a time for you to relax...meet your sedara mara...giving template answer "dah abih skola dah cik"...as usual they thought I just pass my PMR-SPM...it's like HELLo people it's been 6 years!

kan dah raya....

Part I
Weehaaaa!!! saat berakhir presentasi...dapat ku rasa NIKMAT ari lebaran yg menjelma...giler syok!

Part II
dipagi raya ni ku persiapkan diri....kali ni istimewa...mandian FANTASY Britney Spears + lotion badannya + wangian FANTASY yg MANIS!!! rasa mau gigit diri sndri....muahahahaha....

Part III
pagi tadi dapat duit raya pertamaku dari ayahanda...LUMAYAN!!!! muahahaha....mungkin ini...eh...eh...bukan mungkin...CONFIRM this is the last time I'll receive duit raya ever!!!! damn! tapi LUMAYAN!!!! asik!!!!

Part III
org tersayang? well mungkin dia sedang marah lagi menyampah ngan aku...makanya...ku biarkan dia sejuk hingga beku...owh....lupa mau anta msg mohon ampun dan maaf....later la...

Part IV
beraya ngan badan yg amat GEMUK!!!! hahaha...dun give a damn...as long as aku happy! ade semangat baru di Aidilfitri.... harus ku jaga agar tak down seperti biasa....dan perkara2 remeh yg bley buat aku down jua ku tolak ketepi....isu kekasih + persiapan exam + kengkawan yg memualkan + soal masa depanku....nanti2....aku pandang smuanya secara +ve....smuanya harus take a break...biarkan...hadapi n selesaikan satu persatu....CHILL CHILL JEWRR!!!

Lalalala....hari hari kerja!

Part I
assigment aku blum slesai lagi people!

Part II
minggu ni minggu 'mengajar' syok sndri kat depan kelas...

Part III
aku dah dgr guruh kat luar tu...nak hujan ka?

Part IV
owh ya....last weekend me had chance to be at Annexe for the first time...the event...hmmm...biasa ja but the performance by Oh Chenta Ku n Meet Uncle Hussain are supperb!!!! hooray to them!

Part V
had chance to snap a photo with MUH nd ANDY FP....gorgeous!!!!!!

Part VI
to my bf....miss you like crazy!!!! hahahaha.....iyo la tu

LAN PT....

Part I
Bosan....muak...jemu....asek kena bebel...saman...lan pt...lan pt....go to hell la!

Part II
kerja...kerja...kerja...cam biasa...jadi hamba kerja seumur idop!

Part III
semput....sakit blakang...sme dtg serentak....

Part IV
moody tahap mampos! kasihan rerakan....

Part V
I dun do my work OK people!

weekend sakit....

Part I
last weekend I only slept for 30 mins.....glorious me!

Part II
not bad yet terrible overnite! hahaha....no offence but only few peeps njoy the weekend...

Part III
I learn one fact "Masjid tempat org nak solat. Kalo nak tido balik rumah!".....owh I've just discover...like...duh?

Part IV
last weekend I have this communication break down with human....duk diam2 sudah la...

Part V
Owh this week? Teaching...presentation...less sleep...work...work....

Furthering study in CHICKEN development

Part I
There are times that you are damn bored at class n u are thinking....what am I doing here? What's the subject again?

Part II
did you know that a chicken has nose? Muahahaha....smakin lama idop...smakin aku tak kenal ayam...hmmm...I'm thinking to further my study in Chicken Development course (while at Curriculum Development class)

Part III
rasa rindu le...

Is gettin' hot in here.....

Part I
"kak reen, wajah berseri sempena bulan Ramadhan, ke?"
this words are from the taqwa lady...hmmm...interesting

Part II
"Org tgh dapat kasih sayang mmg wajah bercahaya"
a friend answered on behalf of me...(aku tak suruh pun?)

Part III
I can have a friend, I can have a lover or I can have a friend who is not a lover, I can have a lover who is not a friend or I can have nothing.....a reality that one must face...there are no 'special' case that allow you to have a friend who is a lover.

Part IV
currently I'm just tembak ja...I don't think n I dun care...the bigest question currently is...how I can deal with it later? lwell, later then....

Part V
pasar ramadhan lagi!!!! I miss my mum's cooking!!!!

Part VI
MELAKA cam neraka jahanam!!!!!!! panas nak mampos!!!!!!

1 is not enough...2 is complicated....boys?

Part I
I've this problem this week....I can't think!?! my assignment? what assignment? I can't think a thing now

Part II
you know what....I have this situation currently....when you're steady with sumone...here come a bunch of guys who seems to be so nice, the one you aims for so long and now they try to catch you...OK people....but back then when you were single....no one bothers....what on earth is God trying to test me here...faithfulness? just how 'logic' I can be when judging peeps? ARGHHHHH!!!!!

Part II
Are you still single? What the fuck ass dumb damn!!!!!! arghhhh!!!!!!! how should I answer to that...

a) no, I'm not single. Currently steady with.....
b) yes I'm single!
c) Nah...I'm just in the middle, you know I have this prob with him....blablabla (made up stories)

Part III
the differences between bf and gf is that....when the gf is trying to pretend that they are single...they have this sudden guilt...typical nerves!

Part IV
Nah...I'm thinking to keep it cool.....nothing is going to be happen next...so chill chill jewrr!

Part V
I'm not wiriting a blog for peeps to read 'out loud'....I write it because I want to n this is my on9 diary..every writen work here is original and sincere....

stylo + takut GF = jejaka poyo la hoi!

Part I
nasihat buat jejaka tampan...kalo gatal sila jgn pamerkan...kelak menyusahkan

Part II
buat GF yg berBFkn jejaka tampan...ko harus paham bukan ko sorg ja nampak dia tampan lalu jatuh cinta...paham2 la ye mak cik!

Part III
buat rakan2...kesian aku melihat...korg tak brapa nak tampan tapi...haih...dah ade kawan tampan tu sile2 la jage...suh dia pakai bear outfit siap ngan pala bruang...

Part IV
we are not bitches! kalo mau cari bitch sile ke tempat2 yg sepatutnya....kami bakal bersuami lelaki soleh....tak la serabai busuk cam 'jejaka belang2' tu...budak MMU ja...ape kelasss? hahahaha...(aku serius)

Part V
puasalapopuasalapopuasalapopuasalapopuasa

tak tido mlm

Part I
Kerja...kerja...kerja...lecturer temberang....lecturer cam tarjan!

Part II
sminggu aku jadi mengong...I've to force myself thinking....yawning...sleepy...puasa...typing...have no life! GOD BLESS ME!

Part III
thanx to my buruk EPSON printer, he is the HERO of the day! muahahaha....blanja aku skrg!

Part IV
done with my reports...now came the 4000 words essays? tesis? term paper?

Part V
current song that keep on playing ulang2 is JERAT by Harvey.....soothing...again sleepy

Part VI
my phone slamat terjatuh....terhentak...termasuk dlm lopak air ujan....slamat!

red eyes...loosing mind

Part I
I dun have a thing to think

Part II
few qusetions need to be answered....

1- ayam ade ekor ke tak?
2- ayam ade berapa kepak?
3- kenapa manusia ske makan ayam?

Part III
still me stuck with a pile of work...cam haram!

Part IV
do I look like a walking zombie? well think again

Part V
SIBUUUUUUKKKKK je!

I fening u all

Part I
kerja melambak...aku masih bersantai

Part II
aku leh tido n bercakap.....harini baru tau

Part III
kerja....kerja....kerja

Part IV
sakit kaki bersimpuh atas lantai...sambil on9

Part V
mau balik rumah atau berjimba?

my bf slept with a BITCH!!!!

Part I
Damn....going back to Melaka Neraka Jahanam today....

Part II
Dun do any assignment....God blass me

Part III
"why you keep me while you sexin' with another man?" or in my case a BITCH! miahaha...what happen in the world today is that guys can try cuba test dulu all the bitches they craving for...later they want to settle down with a virgin mary? Bawak bertaubat la woi! Dun make a mess over anak dara org's life....

Part IV
camping adelah satu event yg dicipta tuk membunuh! I dun understand why they still believe in it?

suara...suara....

Part I
It's all about my voice...

Part II
I can't scream actually....no one bothers if I do so...be there done that...DONE!

Part III
my voice over the phone wave will sound like a 'macho' guy? what the heck?! and owh...some said the sound of a 'charismatic' man? woah......muahahahaha

Part IV
the moral of this story is...my voice is not for shouting in a classroom....not for phone sex company but for being silent...Permanently!

minggu2 akhir...

Part I
nothing much today...coma bergelut mau coba membuka FS n MS...nyata satu aktiviti yg menarik!

Part II
words that keep pop up from my mouth are "abang" and "sayang" ya...abang for the boys n sayang for the gurls....

Part III
I thought my life will be much in peace after these two weeks but guess what...besides have to finish my assign that I've no clue....I end up have to prepare for BIG which is SUX!

satu pun takleh pakai.....

Part I
Setiap ari pun rasa letih....

Part II
tinggal lagi 2 ari sblum tinggalkan skul....aku makin blur...

Part III
budak2 skul ni buat aku makin PEKAK!

Part IV
"takkan mungkin kita bertahan...hidup dalam bersendirian"
- thanx to my parents n my fwens....mereka masih beri aku sebab tuk idop....masih beri aku semangat...woah....

PART I
I'm currently in DOWN mood

PART II
every nite I cry myself to sleep

PART III
yesterday went out with my gals around mlaka...n guess what...we are DAMN SAD! almost burst into tears....damn we have no life here!

PART IV
tertekan....gile mereka kejam! I HATE MAKTAB! I HATE MELAKA! I HATE MY COURSE!

PART V
DAMN! I dun care bout being a teacher...that stupid pointer that will never change my hatred towards my course...sumpah ape aku buat skrg hanya sekadar mau idop...n that's it!

CAPRICORN- WOMEN

Physical Appearance
The Capricorn women in her early years is normally slender and somewhat weak. Her general demeanour lacks confidence. However there is definitive improvement in her constitution after 16 years of age.
The nose is generally long and the eyes are deep set. The face bears a forlorn look. The body below the waist is normally on the thinner side.
Overall appearance of a Capricorn woman is however of a smart and attractive woman.
Mental Attitude
You have a strong ability to think and you can understand the human nature the way no one else does.
You also have the ability to analyse and understand any concept well and shall possess a good memory. Therefore you will prove good at all professions that require analytical thinking and understanding.
The Capri woman also has the tendency to postpone her actions till the time she is able to clearly see the consequences of what she does.


General Nature
You are quite a reticint person that is you do not speak much. It is not very natural for you to just smile & make friends. It also translates - you are not a party animal. You are modest and polite and do not believe in showing off.
You have a deep understanding of human nature and think and understand the concepts of life and human beings well.When a Capri woman makes friends, she keeps them for a life time.
It is not easy to cheat you. You have a very business savvy nature Methodical working,prudence and the ability to carry on even in most adverse circumstances makes Capricorn people most successful.
Women born in this sign are great organisers and have enormous tolerance, patience and steady nature. You are capable of building a team in which you will not have any favoritism but shall deal with people according to their capacity to deliver goods. You are highly tactful, diplomatic, clever, cunning and selfish.
However on the flip side , if you allow your negative side to dominate , you can easily transform into a cunning person with the ability to cheat others and use them for selfish purposes.


Health
Depression, discontentment, worries and the tendency to keep yourself extremely busy tells on your digestive system.
Skin diseases, injuries to kneecap and dislocations of joints are the other most common problems that a Capri woman faces.


Money
Conservative by nature, prudent and economical - a Capricorn women can amass a lot of wealth in her life.
You do not waste money but save it slowly and steadily. The investments made by you are those which will give you steady and safe income without risk.
However it is also not uncommon for Capri woman to indulge in sporiadic spending spree - leading to temporary financial hassles.


Romance And Sex Life
A capricorn woman loves from heart. You will not tell people about your love, sometimes nor even to the person you love. You shall like simple people with simple lifestyles. You develop strong emotional love for your man and are very sincere and true in your relationships.
Being a practical woman , you do not daydream about romance or involve yourself in casual flings or non serious relationships.
As you are systematic and organised, you can easily control your desires. You are calm and composed from outside even if inside your heart you are brimming of desire.
Your naturalness and desire to rise above the ordinary keeps you a bit aloof but you can be more passionate then other females. You can be ignited by a simple caress.
Your hot spots are toes, knees and naval cavity.


Marriage
You may not strongly want to marry-but you still do. The deep emotional needs of the capricorn borns - along with the need for a stable family life leads to early marriage and they generally have very stable married life.
You are an excellent home maker and you like simple and elegant things-not bright colours but softer ones.
Taking care of children comes very naturally to you and you can contribute significantly in rearing children into intelligent & sensible human beings.
You will have a nature of not generally taking anybody in confidence but you must develop more open relationship with your husband so that he can understand you better and misunderstandings do not crop up.


Ideal Match
Gemini, Virgo, Taurus and Pisces are most suitable signs for you.


Caution
You are the one who is equally happy in leading a solitary or a socially busy life. If you are more sure of yourself , you will become more successful.
However great expectations from your ownself and life, fear of future and remorse about the past, some times leads to great depressions for you.
Plan your life properly and give time to everything and aim a bit low. Try to be contented. That will help you surely.


Lucky Days, Numbers And Colours
Fridays, Wednesdays and Saturdays are your lucky days.
6, 8 & 9 are your lucky numbers.
White, green and light blue are your lucky colours.


Recommended Gemstones
Diamond, Emerald and Blue sapphire are your lucky Gemstones. The gemstone you should wear should be of a vibrant Aura and should never have been worn before. Its weight shall be decided as per your body weight and age

PART I
last nite was a heart breaking nite....giler down

PART II
terlalu banyak ketawa...too many worries.....I'm stress yet I'm laughing? what on earth happens to me r8 now?

PART III
lay on bed last nite with g-wang mood....listening to Fazli Zainal's sejuta nafas to sleep....

PART IV
worried + laughing + rindu + sad + lost + nantuk

Part I
When a bf doesn't care of you but sumone else do...

Part II
When you miss him so much but he doesn't bother but sumone else do miss you so much...

Part III
When everytime your phone rang hoping he is the one but sumone else call you daily...

Part IV
When those msgs drop in your inbox it's not from him but sumone else...

Part V
So am I demanding? am I betraying my bf? or is it what it is for me....be a friend to a guy is FAR better because once you are his...he is not that 'friendly' anymore...

Part VI
" usah melatah meratah kata cinta....kunyah elok2 hadamnya dgn sempurna...faham cinta...kenal erti cinta...tamat cerita...muncul lah kita"

Part I
It's been a while I'm not scribble anything here

PART II
Aku amat kecewa ngan kehidupan aku sejak akhir2 ni...sgt hodoh pemandangan di sekelilingku kini...

PART III
tunggu masa mau mati

cool am I?

Xara, you're Calm, Cool, and Collected

Do your friends like to lean on your shoulder? Ask you for advice in life and love? Put you on speed-dial for emergencies? We bet they do. You're as balanced as they come. When it comes to making decisions, you're not afraid to take the time to weigh your options carefully in order to make the right choice. And it takes more than a few obstacles to rattle your cool head.The good news is that you've also got lots of heart, and you make sure that people know that you always have their backs. There's almost nothing more important to you than the people in your life, so being a support to them is the coolest thing around. Just like you.

XARA: well ya...it's true

my celeb look?

passionate lover?

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy.Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.Irresistible. Loves being in longrelationships. Great talker. Alwaysgets what he or she wants. Cool. Lovesto own Geminis' in sports. Extremelyfun. Loves to joke. Smart.

Guide to capri....

Guide to Dating The Capricorn Woman

The Cappy takes her time in getting to know you, including getting to the bedroom. In fact, she's taken a long time to appreciate and cultivate her own elegant mind and beauty, so she'll expect no less from you. If you're in a hurry, you're with the wrong lady. Clue: Be patient. Dating a Capricorn woman is a lot like watching water boil. It seems like it takes forever for something to happen, but suddenly a bubble bursts to the surface and you're in piping hot water.

If a Capricorn asks you out: Take the conversation seriously and avoid off-handed laughter.

love personality....

Xara, your love personality type is ENTJ

About 3-5% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.Being an ENTJ means that you've got a bit of a rebellious streak in you. So rather than being the kind who follows, you'll usually choose to lead the pack. You also appear to love a challenge more than most others do. So if somebody wants something done, all they have to do is tell you that it's impossible. You're apt to show them then and there how you can make it happen. You're not one to be easily discouraged in any aspect of your life. So if someone catches your eye, you'll likely find a way to get to know them come hell or high water. You're not just a dreamer. You're a doer.

In relationships, you usually have a clear sense of where you want things to lead. You also know how to take charge of a situation to help things go your way. You can exude a personal strength and confidence that really wins people over. Your friendly, outgoing nature also makes most people quite happy to follow your lead. Perhaps they're empowered or inspired by your self-esteem and can-do thinking.

XARA: absollutely r8!

Ibukota...

sesat di IBUKOTA

Rakan buat ku MELUAT!

PART I
banyak benda berlaku sejak akhir2 ni yg cukup mematangkan aku..

PART II
Mcm2 pe'el kengkawan yg slalu buat aku MELUAT + bengang + lucu pun ada gak...natijahnya bila dah terlalu lama bersama

PART III
Kalo bley mau grad skrang jua...atau kementerian anto surat "ANDA TERPAKSA DIGUGURKAN KERANA PRESTASI SERTA KELAKUAN ANDA GAGAL MEMENUHI KEHENDAK KEMENTERIAN" reaksi aku.....YAHOOO!!!!!

PART IV
korang jaga la diri bebaik...jaga tingkah laku...berbudi dan berbahasalah slalu...JANGAN mengecewakan rakan2 anda...

I love I

aku mmg selfish!

HELL GIRL

speacial delivery to HELL...anyone?

reserved!

Ne me quitte pas - English

Ne me quitte pas - English

Do not leave me
It is necessary to forget
All can be forgotten
Who flees already
To forget time
Misunderstandings
And wasted time
Namely how
To forget these hours
Who killed sometimes
With blows of why
The heart of happiness
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me

Me I will offer to you
Pearls of rain
Arrivals of country
Where it does not rain
I will dig the ground
Until after my death
To cover your body
Of gold and light
I will make a field
Where the love will be a king
Where the love will be law
Where you will be queen
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me

Do not leave me
I will invent you
Foolish words
That you will include/understand
I will speak to you
Of these lovers
Who saw twice
Their hearts to blaze up
I will tell you
History of this king
Died not to have not
Pu to meet you
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me

One often saw
To flash back fire
Of an old volcano
That one believed too old
It east appears it
Burned grounds
Giving more corn
That better April
And when comes the evening
So that a sky blazes
Red and black
They do not marry each other
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me

Do not leave me
I will not cry any more
I will not speak any more
I will hide there
With you to look at
To dance and smile
And to listen to you
To sing and then to laugh
Let become to me
Shadow of your shadow
Shadow of your hand
Shadow of your dog
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me
Do not leave me.

Ne me quitte pas

Ne me quitte pas

Ne me quitte pas
Il faut oublier
Tout peut s'oublier
Qui s'enfuit déjà
Oublier le temps
Des malentendus
Et le temps perdu
A savoir comment
Oublier ces heures
Qui tuaient parfois
A coups de pourquoi
Le cœur du bonheur
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Moi je t'offrirai
Des perles de pluie
Venues de pays
Où il ne pleut pas
Je creuserai la terre
Jusqu'après ma mort
Pour couvrir ton corps
D'or et de lumière
Je ferai un domaine
Où l'amour sera roi
Où l'amour sera loi
Où tu seras reine
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Ne me quitte pas
Je t'inventerai
Des mots insensés
Que tu comprendras
Je te parlerai
De ces amants-là
Qui ont vu deux fois
Leurs cœurs s'embraser
Je te raconterai
L'histoire de ce roi
Mort de n'avoir pas
Pu te rencontrer
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

On a vu souvent
Rejaillir le feu
D'un ancien volcan
Qu'on croyait trop vieux
Il est paraît-il
Des terres brûlées
Donnant plus de blé
Qu'un meilleur avril
Et quand vient le soir
Pour qu'un ciel flamboie
Le rouge et le noir
Ne s'épousent-ils pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas

Ne me quitte pas
Je ne vais plus pleurer
Je ne vais plus parler
Je me cacherai là
A te regarder
Danser et sourire
Et à t'écouter
Chanter et puis rire
Laisse-moi devenir
L'ombre de ton ombre
L'ombre de ta main
L'ombre de ton chien
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas
Ne me quitte pas.

tabah lah wahai anak.....

Part I
dah nak xm


Part II
final sem in heaven...soon going back to HELL!


Part III
Lap top rosak


Part III
MS takleh buka langsung dari IIUM


Part IV
period pain


Part V
mak tak kasi balik..duk sengsorg dlm bilik


Part VI
aku tak rasa ini bala...tapi ujian yg harus ku tempuhi ngan cekal

poyo la aku

Part I
nantuk

Part II
bosan

Part III
rimas

Part IV
kena tegur ngan lecturer sebab ada unsur2 mau meniru...

Part V
RINDUKAMU!!!!