29july

perasaan ini amat hebat...sudah di perjelas dgn terperinci kepada dia yg berhak...maka dia kembali pulih malah dtg dgn azam baru yg lebih hebat...perasaan ini bukan untuk dikongsikan di sini...skadar mletak kata sebagai penanda arini AKU OFFICIALLY a NEW PERSON!

XARA

Dearest fwenz,

I'm moving to Sabah...merantau cari pengalaman di tempat org...

dlm keadaan yg tidak menentu...I'm not sure whether I'll be able to make myself on9 (aku tak sure ulu mana aku tercampak kat sabah tu)

bagi mreka yg bakal bertunang/kawen...awal2 aku mohon maaf tak dapat memeriahkan majlis kalian n doaku smoga berbahagia slalu...(oho...mjlis aku sudah pasti tidak menyusur dlm masa terdekat ni...dun worry)

however dun worry...I'll do just fine...idop musti dtruskn...cuma dikesempatan ini aku mahu memohon ampun dan maaf atas segala kesilapan ku terdahulu atau akan dtg...halal makan minum aku...kalo aku ade utang sila hubungi aku atau waris aku di smenanjung ni...doakan kesejahteraan aku dunia akhirat sepertimana doaku tuk kalian jua dan ingatan korg pada aku amat aku hargai...

owh ya...bila sudah cukup pengalaman dikutip aku pasti pulang ke kampung halaman...

with luv,
XARA

ape ye...

part I
aku: You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong
leadership role in relationships. You make good decisions and make the
right choices at the right time. You dream of a romantic relationship.

dia: You are the cute and lovable type. You are picky but always in love...and
likes being loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable
with people, nice, soft and they can love you for the way you are. Likes
people who are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable.

A-P

part I
happy has arrived at last! hahaha....musim gayut 45mins is back! yeah!

part II
one step to commitment...I'm amazed with my Mr.Cool..he is highly confident n motivated...sgt memberi impact kepada kehidupan aku...hahaha...for now I'm happy with my new relationship...I told a friend of mine that this is one super real JODOH DARI LANGIT...he is almost perfect...if we have to end this relationship (which I pray NOT!) I'll never forget him like forever! huh...cam nak nangis lak...ahaks...I guess this is how it feels when u final met ur MR.R8 aite! everything seems to be r8!! hahaha...aku gementar but I'm happy

part III
keberantakan institusi persahabatan secohort ku kini bukan kerna dinner seperti biasanya...tapi soal posting...haha...sme tak sabo2...mak apak aku jua kalut...aku relax ja...nak kalut mende...akan bkrja juga akhirnya...bawak2 la bersabar...doa banyak2 smoga lancar smenya...yg nak pusing2 nape?

part IV
(hasil survey)

fit to commit because you know what you want
You don't need us to tell you that you're on the right track. A cool and confident person, you know what you want; now it's just a matter of finding it. Even more important, you know that love is about much more than what kind of clothes they wear or car they drive. And you're ready to make it work.

You've gotten to a place where you are happy with your life, and you're ready to share it with someone special. So whether you've found them or are still looking, know that this time, you'll get what you want.

*pengsan*

sedih but I'm happy?!

part I
haih...aku bersyukur kerna setelah lebih 100 kali aku pk mau terjun bangunan spnjang course aku ni tapi akhirnya aku dapat gak habihkan course ni n still alive!

part II
ya..aku mmg kureng ske ngan perkumpulan wanita..mreka terlalu beriya2 kalo bab2 nak melawa nak memeriahkan diri lagi menonjol2 di majlis umum...sgt memualkan aku...spanjang course skali aja aku hadiri dinner...tu pun sbb aku takleh nak lari lagipun aku beritahu pada diri...skali ni ja reen...skali ni ja...n honestly...amat merimaskan aku...aku lebih kpd majlis santai kerna tatkala itu para wanita supposingly berpakian biasa2 aja(kalo ade nak melaram...itu standard mreka)...jadi about this up coming yg baru diura2 mau buat majlis santai...hmmm...aku brpk...haruskah aku join sama? tgkla...kalo aku gile aku join la...mreka kata kalo tak nak hadir...pasti ade reason mreka sndri...jadi yeah...aku ade REASONnya...KUKUH!

part III
oho ya...about my man...ya...amat merinduinya...tapi ape bley buat...family aku amat traditional...aku tidak biasa mreka lihat brbf...jadi terperuk la aku didlm bilik takde mende nak buat...sibuk suh amek lesen keta tapi akhirnya takde keta tuk aku drive...huh...mual lak rasa....

part IV
seday aku ngan kehidupan skrg...mungkin kerna aku tak banyak berjalan...sambung menulis di lain kali...aku nak kuar ke dapur ja...tu ja perjalanan yg aku ade

teacher I miss you!

part I
"teacher I miss u!" a sms recieved from a pup...I do miss them making me their colorful clown! damn! hahahaha...

part II
today, our serawa derian dimasuki cicak...waiting for any of us whom will turn to a cicikman! hahahaha

part II
I miss my man so much! damn! how I wish I can be there r8 now! argh!!! it's always like this...hate it!

part III
I've just done reading 'on the way to the wedding' by Julia Quinn...I luv to read a victorian setting novel...I do read classical novel...but never finish it...hahaha sorry Jane Austin! hahaha

part IV
result 3rd sem dah kuar...hahaha...sengal but I'm glad it's over!

kali ni last...

part I
good morning, teacher!....last one to be heard

part II
thank you, teacher!...I'll walk n will never return

part III
hari2 terakhir di skola...rasa bercampur baur...menyampah...ske...sedih...rindu...sme ade...

part IV
mcm mana rasanya bila pagi2 sampai kat skola anak murid bersilih ganti menegur "assalamualaikum cikgu" "morning teacher"...masuk kelas..sme bangun n ucap salam...bila kau panggil sorg stud n meminta mereka mengangkut sgala harta ko yang maha berat...anak murid tu tak pernah membantah meskipun dia terpaksa mendaki 4 tingkat membawa buku rancangan mengajar ko yg suku berat mereka...bila ko sebut nama mereka...mereka akan pantas bangun dan menyahut...sesuatu yg ibu bapa mereka pun blum tentu dpt layanan se-exclusive begitu....this is what sorg penyajak bebas pernah kata...even a lawyer could not make this huge impact on human life...kala ko berdehem sme terdiam...kala ko berdiri sme bergegas ke tempat masing2...kala ko berjalan berlari mereka masuk ke kelas...di kala ini aku pk...ISTIMEWA tugasku...di offis yg dingin, berkerusi empuk, berlantai kapet aku tak dihormati sebegini lantas aku rasa hidup aku tak bermakna...ari2 ngadap komputer-kertas kerja-maki hamun bos...no human touch...

part V
so I was thinking the other day just what I should be after my 5 years contract...n surprisingly I couldn't think of any other job...let time leads me...aku follow je.

berdebar2

part I
minggu2 santai ku

part II
aku seperti sudah selesa di skola...sudah mula ske kanak2...ahha...kata sorg teman...tu PETANDA! hahaha...pekejadahnya

part III
minggu ni...bertugas menyambut ibu bapa yg hadir mau tahu perkembangan anak2 di skola..mereka dtg penuh harapan...aku mula rasa beban yg teramat berat aku galas selama ini...MENDIDIK

part IV
cikgu ni cantikla...hahaha kata2 sorg anak murid tahun satu...sorg anak murid tahun 4 pula berkata...eh cikgu ade lesung pipit...comel...hahaha...mreka terlalu jujur...muahahahahaha *pengsan*

part V
mendalami profession keguruan...aku salute kepada para guru...mereka berusaha...banyak yg aku pelajari...disbalik kekurangan mereka sbgai sorg manusia..mreka ttp MENDIDIK...mreka mahu anak murid berjaya...mereka MENDIDIK

part VI
oho minggu yg agak jiwa kacau...I've found THE MAN! (jodoh mmg jatuh dari langit!)

part VII
currently reading: on the way to the wedding by julia quinn
ulasan: tepat pada mood aku dikala ini

cerita minggu ini...

Part I
OBSERVATION TAMMAT!

Part II
penat campur2 malas....tapi aku happy;)

Part III
sadly minggu ni aku dpt tau dia dah takde...xpe tak leh nak paksa...ade reason kenapa dia tak ku hangkut ke masa depan ku...move on! dah dewasa...aku dah tak emosi soal2 begini...baik aku risaukan posting aku...

Part IV
sudah mau tammat pengajian n course aku tak diiktiraf?? KORANG NAK MAMPUS KENA BOMB AGAKNYA!

Part V
ape perasaan aku tatkala anak murid beratur dan salam smbl cium tangan aku...aku rasa aku banyak dosa ngan depa...sudah tentu tak layak tuk dihormati sebegitu

Part VI
aku dah ade anak murid favvy...hahaha...Iqbal! nanti aku post picnya!

Part VII
minggu2 so sial! hahahaha

minyak

part I
nothing much to say...aku lagi confuse...ape dah jadi ngan dunia?

part II
aku percaya ramai akan berstuju ngan aku...kite sudah sampai di penghujungnya...kiamat sudah dekat...terlalu dekat...teramat dekat...dekat...at

part III
it is too sad to see that no one can be trusted...talking about our own leaders? yeah..I wonder whom do they really lead now? we? I am not quite agree...they do not know how to serve...poor management I would say...it is all a poor management...we have been poorly manage by self claim elected leader...we need fresh young people here...they r too old for all of these...I believe they r just too tired...they need a break...step down? nah...it is too late for that...we need a quick action here...stepping down will not solve this n whom do you want to be the next leader...the one with high profile murder case? no...no..no...this is all wrong...go n figure it out before I lost my job...before I go starving with no food...before I have to involve in a war...before I have to be a pelarian...before...

part IV
sorg kenalan bertanya...ko rasa ko kawen umur brapa...ko punya soklan ni main pakai rasa2 lak...rasa2 mana la tahu...kecik2 dulu aku slalu rasa umur 25 tahun aku dah kawen...bkn nak ckp ape la dah masuk 24 n beberapa bulan ja lagi nak masuk 25...haram aku tak terasa nak kawen...aku bukannya pandai masak...dah kena blajar masak...bukannya rajin buat kerja rumah...dah kena blajo camna nak lipat baju...aku ni bukannya suka budak2...dah kena blajo2 pegang budak...eh...leceh nye! meleret2...ngan harga minyak naik ni mmg takde market la nak letak hantaran tinggi...in ur dreams la dey! jadi tunggu la bila aku rasa aku dah cukup kaya...aku leh tanggung diri sndri...ada duit lebih, baru aku kawen...woah! dah mcm laki punya ayat lak...skrg pompuan pun kena camtu...ko tak tau laki yg tah kerja ape bakal jd suami ko...ramai lelaki skrg yg diri sndri pun semput nak tanggung apetah lagi anak org ngan anak2 yg bakal lahir berderet kelak (aku rasa jumlah anak pun kena catu!)...hehehehe...pk2kn la...dunia dah nak kiamat...phm2 aje la ye lelaki....

part V
yeah musim cuti dah berakhir...ramai yg teman tgk dah slamat kawen ha...pepandai la korg manage kehidupan baru...beras dah mahal...minyak dah naik...brg2 pun sibuk naik...nak bayo sewa rumah lagi...suk kalo dah ade anak nak bayo pengasuh lagi...tu sorg...masuk 3-4 org...makan pakai derang lagi...tiket bas nak balik kampung pun dah mahal...dulu sorg2 tak terasa...ni dah beranak pinak...nak bwk keta duit minyak mahal...nak naik bas...tiket naik...naik ketapi takut masuk gaung...night flight la...guna MAS low fares! hahahaha...sasak la...baik single je buat masa ni...srabut aku tgk

part VI
in a nut shell...smuanya salah harga minyak yg naik 80sen! hahahaha....

a tourist...

part I
The traveler sees what he sees, the tourist sees what he has come to see.
- G. K. Chesterton

XARA: I'm a tourist!

part II
Lady: So when is the last time u visited Singapore b4 this trip?
Me: This is my frist after 12 years
Lady: Pardon?
Me: My first visit after 12 years la!

part III
bought a Singapore tee n a PUMA shoulder bag...I LOVE!!!!

part IV
planning to visit Singapore again! kali ni aku mau angkut perfume lak...letih yet I'm happy;p

i finally learn why.....

DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE PEOPLE IN YOUR PAST...THERE'S A REASON THEY DIDN'T MAKE IT TO YOUR FUTURE -quote from the net


XARA: a simple explaination for the most complecated problem in life

musim dating

Part I
coba elak meronda di bandar....musim coti skola ni...banyak budak2 berlagak hebat berpelukan...jalan guna gear satu sambil block perjalanan ku...ya ampun kanak2...aku tatkala berhingusan seperti kalian...idop aku hanya skola-pusat tuisyen-famili...kuar bersama kwn2 adela sesuatu yg dinikmati stahun 2-3 kali...kuar ngan bf jauh skali! korg dah bley begitu rupa sprti suami isteri...tiada yg istimewa ttg kalian...too bad...U r not enjoying ur life...kalo sme sudah 'merasa' di zaman muda...ape yg perlu kalian 'rasa' bila sampai di alam remaja sehingga la tua...tu yg end up buat benda yg pelik2...idop mesti merasa smua pringkat...xsme perlu bergerak ekspress sih!

Part II
oho...sbentar td sorg rakan lama menelefon ku...WOAH!!!! haru aku jadinya...I miss her so much la! she reminds me of our sweet days 2gether...hebat waktu tu...prkumpulan wanita yg untouchable! lelaki bukan takut tapi 'malas' mau deal ngan kami...hahaha...skrg sudah sukar mau kumpul sme srentak...sorg di NZ...sorg di kluang...sorg di mlaka...yg sorg ni hometownnya kini KK...adeh...sukar

Part III
tak sempat mau merisik 'statusnya' kini...kami slalu jangka dia yg akan bernikah trlebih dhulu...hahaha...bukan sembarangan tembak...dia sudah ade kualiti jd isteri org since form 4...hahaha...yg lain2 sudah tahu status...yg latest akhirnya berpacaran kmbali...syukur...kalo tak brubah dia mnjadi songsang! hahahaha...

Part IV
crita soal bf ni...2 org rakan akrab ku dari sahabat berempat itu berbfkn rakan skola...typical kata ku...lalu mreka hentam aku balik..."ko! aku nak tgk sape bf ko suk...jauh sgt ke orgnya sampai susah sgt ko nak jumpa...dpt budak skola kita gak...siap ko!"...ini bukan marah...tu AMARAN! hahahaha...[berusahalah mencari bf jauh2...gambate!]


Part V
sakit blakang-tulang temulang-urat2-sendi mendi....bowling punya pasal!

Part VI
aku rasa aku dah bosan ngan lelaki...hahaha...yeah...aku serius...too bad

read these...u learn sumthing

1-Imagination is more important than knowledge. -Albert Einstein

2-If music be the food of love, play on. -Shakespeare

3-The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing. -Walt Disney

4-Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off the goal. -Henry Ford

5-I skate where the puck is going to be, not where it has been. -Wayne Gretzky

6-When you come to a fork in the road, take it. -Yogi Berra

7-We may affirm absolutely that nothing great in the world has been accomplished without passion. -Hegel

8-The life which is unexamined is not worth living. -Socrates

9-Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever. -M.K. Gandhi

10-What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals. -Zig Ziglar

11-"In theory, there is no difference between theory and practice. But in practice, there is." - Yogi Berra

12-"Don't be so humble - you are not that great." - Golda Meir (1898-1978) to a visiting diplomat

13-"There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it." - Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)

14-"The man who does not read good books has no advantage over the man who cannot read them." - Mark Twain (1835-1910)

15-"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education." - Mark Twain (1835-1910)

I'm back aite?!

Part I
3 songs currently dok ulang2 dlm playlist aku....
> I'm back-Baby Bash
> Hanya Kau Yang Mampu-Aizat
> Warkah-Bau

Part II
currently jua sdg mengerjakan WEDDING DASH 2

Part III
hunger? yeah...dah umpama pelarian di rumah kluarga sndri...sumpah aku lapo ni!!!! aku rindu rumah sewa!!! kebebasan!!! shit la...skrg aku tau nape anak muda once dah kuar rumah family mereka jadi makhluk asing bila pulang smula bercuti...gile bosang!


Part IV
duit makin surut kawan! adeh...praktikum ni buang masa n duit aku!

Part V
Owh ya...aku pk aku mau sambung blajo...di mana? course apa? xpenting...yg penting aku harus sntiasa generate idea2 n strusnya menggerakkan minda aku...duduk di skul otak ku xkan berkembang...that's why cikgu is a bunch of peeps yg kalo jalan kat bandar pun org tau dia cikgu...why? sbb drg ade gaya bertindak n brpk mreka sndri (bak kata gb aku, cikgu punya portfolio ade human touch xsama dgn engineer JKR.heh?)...umpama alien berjalan2 di bandar...mreka tidak bercampur (campur sama org politik aja)...sbb xbrcampur kerna mreka xde social life...sbb ape xde social life...kerna mreka hanya idop ngan cikgu+anak murid+kekadang guru besau+tukang kebun+ade la sket2 tegur pak guard+kerani skola+pkerja am+extra effort kalo buat baik ngan abang kedai fotostat atau kedai buku.....SUX, I know.

Part VI
di kala ini aku hanya pk...ape aku nak makan...lapo sey...rentak famili aku mkn xsama ngan aku...sungguh la aku lapo...lapo...lapar...hungry...sangat2...amat...teramat...*mati kelaparan*

almost....

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

XARA: almost all r correct...

Scandal...

Part I
Drama kehidupan manusia antara si adam yg beristeri dan beranak 4 dgn si perempuan yg belum pernah dinikahi...ending cite...sux!

Prt II
yg penting pepandai la jaga diri...dunia dah nak kiamat ni mcm2 tanda besau dah kuar...tah2 dajal pun dah kuar...mana kite tau...insyaAllah...aku jaga ape yg aku ade..dignity skrg susah mau jaga lagi jangka...u can be an iron lady tp tumpas ditgn lelaki...u can be an imam yet tewas dgn nafsunya sndri...world towards kehancuran!

Part III
kawan ku bertunang....congrates bagi mereka yg bertunang n for those who r just counting days for their big day! congrates...me? next year? sape la yg pepandai tabur fitnah ni...muahahaha

Part IV
idop lebih bahagia tanpa skola dan lesson plan!

Part V
sandwich + latte = completes my morning!

arini aku nak brpk

Part I
u know when u reach an age of 24...u will just wonder...am I in the r8 track? I mean my life? the r8 job? the r8 man? the r8 frens? owh? am I in the r8 time to think about it or I'm just too late...too late?

Part II
ohoi! aku tak ske skola!!!! penuh ngan scandal! gossip! I just hate the politics! damn! brapa lama lagi ni! waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!! (ps:nape cikgu lelaki gatal iek?)

Part III
dah la tu...k...kali ni nak cite pasal melaka...u know what happen now? apak aku dah smb kerja sampai umuq dia 58...which means...dia takkan pulang ke mlaka as what we have planed b4...naya tul la...kalo la aku dpt posting mlaka...mati kering la aku...I'm thinking mau try ke terengganu(plan asal gue)...kalo tak pun sabah sarawak...kat smenanjung ni dah terlalu banyak problem...sesak aku tgk...baik duk dlm utan...dunia aku tak tau...takde la bimbang...my concern is that...asal takde anak babi sesat dlm rumah dah le...hahahaha...haih...how easy life can be...take it super slow n njoy each bits of it...life

Part IV
owh...aku cadang mau join drift la...hahaha...car racer club ka...huih...gile dah

Part V
masuk keta+start enjin+volume radio 22+tekan minyak+melalak sampai ilang sore!

love..love..me

ahha....

*bravo!*