Meniti Hari...

Begini lamunan asmara
Sehari bagaikan setahun lamanya
Terpisah di saat rindu yang membara
Kau jauh dari mata

rindu weyh! damn! arghhhhhh!!!!! aku benci pada kerinduan!!!!!!!

tahun berakhir...kehidupan baru bermula

we are moving towards the end of 2009...kalian, aku pasti sudah capai ape yg diingini atau sedang dipertengahan atau mungkin blum ketemu lagi impian yg diangankan...tak salah berangan geng..kerna dari angan2 kite akan sentiasa peka dalam mencari peluang...atau lebih ambitious mencipta peluang! org Melayu kata jangan jadi mat jenin...tp kadang2 bila ku pk...org Melayu sebenarnya don't even DARE to dream...takde angan2...takut nak berangan...jd kehidupan seperti go with the flow...disepanjang 2009 akulah si Melayu yg don't DARE to dream itu...

seperti tidak mahu lagi kecewa sperti 2008...tp tahun 2009, aku berdoa...kali ini aku bertawakal...bermohon...berserah kepada ALLAH...doa xhenti2 ku ucapkan..di tanah suci-tanah haram-tanahair...even di ruang angkasa...kali ini aku fokus pada dua perkara yg telah mengecewakan aku terdahulunya...Tuhan tu tak bagi ape yg kita pohon secara percuma...kau mahu...kau harus berusaha...perlu kau miliki kesabaran...Tuhan bukan adek2 kita yg leh kita minta kalo tak dapat kita rampas...dan kita juga bukan hamba abdi kepada Tuhan...tak layak utk memohon dan tak layak utk berkomunikasi...Tuhan mendengar ape yg kita pohon, geng...meski skadar bisikan dalam hati...tiada syarat khas utk berhubung terus denganNYA...tidak perlu appointment...yg penting ko jujur n ikhlas...

di dalam doa..aku pohon 2 perkara...jika pemindahan aku ke semenanjung direstuiNYA...jika itu pintu rezeki yg terbaik utk aku...maka aku pohon percepatkan dan permudahkan segala usaha dan proses pemindahan...keduanya, jika sudah tiba masanya utk aku ketemu jodoh yg terbaik buatku yg telah Tuhan janjikan kepada hambaNYA...seseorg yg dapat menghilangkan perasaan bimbang ibu dan ayahku...seseorg yg mampu membimbingku dunia akhirat maka pertemukanlah kami dan permudahkan jalan utk menyatukan kami...bahagiakan kami dunia akhirat...doa ini 5xsehari**...jgn sehari pun berhenti berharap mahupun putus berharap...ingt Tuhan tu maha bijaksana...tiba masanya nanti akan terjawab...bukan seperti fahaman barat...jika pemohonan tidak dikurniakan Tuhan...maka perlu merasakan Tuhan itu tidak adil ataupun terlepas pandang...perlu bersabar...perlu ikhtiar...perlu ikhlas dan redha...mudah? tetapi sukar utk direalisasikan, geng.

honestly...mmg SUKAR...aku bukan jenis yg penyabar...aku ske mengeluh...kmudian aku terbaca artikel ditulis HM Tuah...katanya sesuatu yg berlaku musti ade hikmahnya...betul juga...pasti ada sbb kenapa aku tidak berjaya pindah thn lepas...jika tidak...aku tak kenal ija dan shidah dan rangkaian rakan2 mereka...aku takkan sedar bahawa pemilihan kekasih aku yg lalu itu satu kesilapan

ALHAMDULILLAH...di penghujung tahun aku menemui jawapan...walau pape pun yg bakal mendatang...ape yg aku terima di akhir tahun 2009 ini adalah satu garis permulaan sebuah lagi kisah kehidupan aku di tahun mendatang...semoga aku panjang umur dan diberi peluang utk menjadi muslimah yg lebih baik.amin

TERTELAN!

kondisi pertama: sedang borak2 diantara beramai...sorang2 bercerita...si A ade mahu berkongsi
cerita...tiba2 "silence"...jd si A terpk...mahu aku buka cerita ni...atau mereka mau tukar
topik...atau mereka sudah mahu berhenti bercakap and proceed to their individual activities..
jadi cerita itu tak dapat disampai...takpe next time kalo cerita pasal topic tu leh share cite
yg ni...mungkin cerita tu tertangguh atau mungkin tak trkongsi langsung? atau mungkin
cerita yg hendak dikongsikan itu akan dilupakan langsung oleh si A? hahaha...perkara yg
berlaku seharian yg kite terlepas pandang, kan?

kondisi kedua: dalam melakukan beberapa tasks serentak...tampak sibuk...mula2 g basuh baju...
pastu basuh pinggan...pastu nak g sapu ruang tamu...dalam perjalanan ke ruang tamu...ternampak
biskut raya kat dalam balang...berhenti jap...telan dua tiga keping...pastu tekak terasa nak
minum air milo...g dapur, masak air, bancuh milo...pas minum, bunyi lak fon...g kat fon tgk
sape msg...balas sambil golek2...ternampak lak baju yg lum di lipat/gantung...g lipat n
gantung baju...belek2 baju...ade lak yg koyak...g amek jarum n jahit...pas jahit, mata jd
nantuk...terlelap...dalam talian tasks terbabit ape yg aku blum buat...cuba prahati...ya!
anda bijak lagi prihatin...aku tak sapu ruang tamu...perkara yg kerap berlaku bila kerja
tak organize...ape nampak buat...ape nampak sebat...jd ade je yg keciciran...satu perkara
tercicir dari setiap rantaian kerja sbnrnya akan menambah kerja kita di lain masa...umpama
tersia la plan kite nak g kedai bli gula tapi bila sampai kedai kite bli garam,kunyit,beras
dan kopi...jadi balik rumah takleh nak bancuh kopi sbb takde gula...jadi kuar lagi buat lagi
set kedua rantaian kerja...pastu miss lagi few things...kuar lagi...kuar lagi..lagi dan lagi

kondisi ketiga: duduk didalam LRT...terspot a guy...he is not too handsome nor too ugly...
simple ja orgnya...tak nampak cam baik2 sgt tak la cam jahat sangat...jd dah ade perasaan
kesukaan berputik di hati...2minutes b4 next station...should I give the immediate smile or
usha2 dulu...takkan nak trus g tegur...aku perempuan...times up...dah sampai station terbabit,
lega...mujur dia tak turun...peluang ke dua...7mins to the next station...dah brani sket...
angkat muka and tenung dia...bagi hint la konon2...tp bila dia angkat muka...pandangan si
pengusha kembali ke bawah...ah! pengecut...pandang lagi..this time he is on the phone...damn!
tah2 dah ade gf...tah2 tu isteri dia...sampai ke station sterusnya...tergesa2 dia berlalu
sambil bercakap di phone...ah terlepas dan melepas!

konklusi: dalam ketiga2 kondisi di atas...situasi mungkin berlainan...cerita mungkin tak
serupa...masalahnya mungkin tak sama...tp isunya terlepas pandang...terpendam...TERTELAN!

aku: maaf...entry ni aku type kat notepad smlm dalam bilik guru...tatkala abeh kelas n aku puasa tak g mkn...sorg2 dlm opis menaip benda merapu ni...jd aku malas nak edit ghuper entry ni...just copy n paste...jgn pening!

...jadi biarkanlah perempuan dgn duit mereka

sesaat yg lalu...aku baru melihat seorg lelaki telah mengetuk kereta mininya menjadi transformers...wow! hebat! slalu kata takde duit...dah abeh bayo keta...gaji dah abeh bulan ni..aku hingat la dah abeh duit bayo ansuran keta...ghupernye dah invest kat liability terbesar manusia (kereta ni takde value kat market). aku tak kesah...dia nak buat keta dia jadi kereta berhias macam hari kebangsaan tu pun aku tak kesah...kerna itu naluri lelaki dan aku respect itu. yg menjadi aku tidak brapa berkenan...swaktu bersama cukup marah si dia bila dapat tahu aku asyek ke KK...blanja mewah...brshopping...tambah koleksi botol minyak wangi kat meja solek aku...katanya aku tak gheti berjimat! ske membazir! huhuhu...lucu kan? kalo aku leh menghormati keinginannya kpd isteri pertamanya (aku mengiyakan kata2 lelaki saja)...yg dia xleh nak hormat keinginan aku, nape? I'll bet simpanan aku jauh lebih banyak dari si dia...jd udah2 le tu...berbahagialah ko ngan keta ko sehingga ke anak cucu keta...suh keta tu branak banyak2...labor la banyak2 kat depa...sbb keta tu leh jaga ko sampai ke tua...leh masak...leh suapkan ubat...eh isteri pertama kan...pasti jauh lebih hebat dari perempuan mcm aku ni...nasihat aku kpd lelaki...biarlah perempuan ngan duit mereka...kerna kalian hanya leh tengok ja the numbers...tp takleh merasa tanpa ehsan si isteri...ladies skrg pandai menyimpan...pandai melabur...gaji pun masing2 dah besau...jaga2 dunia dah nak kiamat..aman!

Terkasima

ME: sesuatu utk difikirkan...atau sesuatu utk dirasai?

kaki snap-snap

permainan slama sminggu bersama D80!

Aidilfitri

seribu ampun dan maaf dipinta...semoga Aidilfitri ini tambah diberkati sekaliannya...amin

Are You Satisfied With Your Life?

Are you loving life or really hating it? This simple test should determine if you are satisfied with your life and, if not, ways on how to improve it.

Your Life is Sometimes Satisfying
You enjoy life most of the time, but you could be getting more out of it.
You have your ups and downs, but probably more of them than is ideal.
Try to life a more balanced, simple life. It's possible that stress is getting you down. Or you may not be doing what you truly love. Seize the day, and follow your own path!

Me: great! I quit my job!

W.T.H?

What age will you lose your virginity?
"For Virgins Only". When will you finally lose your virginity? Or did you already...?

RESULT:
After you get married!!
You're shy around the oppite sex, but don't be worried. Soon you will find someone who loves you for you!

Me: it's worth it!



Which Element Are You?
Everyone is born different. The element you belong to is related to your personality. Compare to your friends to see if you guys match!

RESULT:
Water Element
You are an open, receptive person who values communication. You believe in staying flexible.
You are thoughtful and philosophical. You are still trying to figure out the mean...ing of your life.
You have to watch out for your own judgments. You often change your mind, and you should avoid clinging to dogma.
You are calm and passive. You don't rush to make things happen in your life. You accept things as they are.


ME: ahha..I accept things as they are...hmmm

Where Will You Be in Ten Years?

result is...Changing the World

You are a nice person. You love to help people. Your life is full of challenge and excitement. You keep learning new things which you can use to help this world. 10 years for you means you can change the world to be a better place for people to live. Keep going! Your world is full of love!


Me: agak benar tp aku tidak mahu mengakuinya kerna kalo gini kerjanya seorg guru n aku tak layak menjadi yg itu...aku rasa aku nak jadi suri rumah aja lah...mungkin aku boleh mengubah anak2 ku (mcm aku kawen)

Why Are You Still Single?

Everyone wants a little romance in their lives, but some times that special someone is really hard to come by. Even if you're a good person or ready for love, you might not be able to find that relationship and you just don't know why. Take this quiz and we’ll tell you why!

RESULT: Not In the Mood

You're mind may say you want a relationship, but your heart clearly is not there yet. All of your actions speak of one who is more about the chase than the actual catch. ...It's okay to be this way, but we have to wonder why you took this quiz in the first place. Do you think society wants you to have a relationship? Are you just trying to compete with a former ex? None of these reasons are good enough to actually delve into a relationship we must say, so until you can really commit, we suggest you continue your tromp as a rouge about town.


Me: extremely true

Bisikan Chenta...

me: walaupun kau bersamanya...kau tetap aku yg punya...
sayang kau tak menyedari...cintamu ada disini...
(too bad....love wasted...me? move on)


Current playlist
1.Erema - Pelita Dibawah Purnama
2.M.Nasir - Sentuhan Listrikmu (old time favvy)
3.One Nation Emcees ft Damien - Bisikan Cinta
4.Yuna - Dan Sebenarnya (my ex-bf dedicated this song b4)
5.Zee Avi - Bitter Heart
6.Imelda - Putus
7.Kagen Band - Kembali Pulang (lagu dedikasi dr Cikgu Said...hehehe)

aku dah kata dah....

What type of career fits you?

A CAREER IN THE ARTS

You are a gifted person with talents to boot! Your artistic nature will blossom in these careers: writer, painter, sculptor, decorator, graphic artist, novelist, bookstore owner, landscaper, cartoonist, illustrator, playwright, director, producer, makeup artist or florist.


me: aku dah kata dah...teaching is not in the line....bookstore owner is a great idea...hmmm....interesting

aku sbenarnya slalu terangan dari zaman skola nak buka boutique hotel...smoga aku mampu melakukan sesuatu yg aku inginkan and I dun mind to be a slave of something that I heart to do...harus blaja buka mata....kena study banyak

Sentuhan Listrikmu....

Sentuhan Listrikmu

Bisakah aku bertanya padamu
Dari mana datang sayang ini
Dari redup matamu
Atau bisikan mesra

Adakah kerna sentuhan listrikmu
Membuat ku terus berjanji
Hati ini hanya untukmu saja

Sentuhanmu bukan datang dari
Dunia materi
Terasa ini pernah mengusikku
Bagai de javu

Ku rindu sentuhanmu
Ku damba sentuhanmu
Tiada lain yang ku inginkan
Hanyalah
Hanya sentuhanmu


me: top list lagu old time favvy...stiap kali dgr lagu ni bikin wa mau berchenta!

I heart them!

1991-FOREVER...guess we grow old 2gether
dari jaman pinafore ke tudung lilit...what a revolution! hahahaha

kill time

What Kind of Coffee Are You?
Soy Latte
*At your best, you are: free spirited, down to earth, and relaxed
At your worst, you are: dogmatic and picky
You drink coffee when: you need a pick me up, and green tea isn't cutting it
Your caffeine addiction level: medium

Me: Super correct!



I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time I've kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
But my heart is broken
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise
Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me
Oh please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry
Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da, da da
Please, please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)

Baby please don't leave me
(Da da da, da da)
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back
It's gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Me: well...it's me alright

Ismail Haron - Ilham Pujangga

I'm touched...

hancur

1 year anni.....

aku n serra @ kk...just 2 of us...shopping sakan!!!!

............prt II

Nurul Hakim: Are u sure the pain at your back and joints just a normal one? Kalau tak silap akak la, tulah tanda2 stress yg amat iaitu also known as burnout..to get rid of burnout situation, you must get out from your current environment..

*nasihat kak akim my dearest cousin....I am stress...tukang urut kaki aku pun aku sgt stress sampai aku terjerit kecik bila dia picit titik stress aku....serra menjadi saksi...owh thanx to serra sbb jadi geng shopping aku...serra, handbag+kasut raya kita tak bli lagi....hahahahaha